I've had lots of comments from people in the last while stating that they are proud of me...that they are "in awe" by the amount of exercise that I do...that "I am an inspiration" to them. While these comments always leave a lasting impression on me, and keep me going, there is a real reason behind what and why I do it.
I started this journey over two years ago because I lost my Mom. My sisters and I found her body in her bed in her home one Saturday night in January 2009. This is a day I will never forget. She lost her battle with alcoholism and rheumatoid arthritis. My Mom battled each day with dignity and courage, but her body just couldn't fight anymore.
I was 360 lbs then. Plain and simple - I don't want to end up like my Mom. I don't want to go back to the 360lb Kristy. She is gone. She served her purpose - whatever that was, but she is now a blip in the past. My Mom is what keeps me going. Her strength within in me is what has been pushing me to work harder. She has been the reason for me not giving up when I've wanted to - on numerous occasions I may add. I've been having a lot of conversations with her lately - I know she can hear me...I can hear her saying "Keep pushing Kris - don't give up" "Get a grip!" "Smarten up!"
Thank you for being an inspriation to me Mom...I love you and I will never give up!
Oh do I miss her...
So...my week...has been a bit of a struggle...Monday and Tuesday were great - my workouts were really great. I am really beginning to love my spin classes tho! On Wednesday my friend Randi and I went to the YMCA and she and I did my new workout! She and I did everything from lat pull downs, to seated rows, to leg presses and bicep curls. She did such a great job and I am so proud of her. I have to admit, I was kind of happy that she was sore the next day...is that wrong?? lol... Thursday I took a long walk through my neighborhood - I am glad the weather is still holding out so that we can still do that. Friday I went back to the YMCA...and kicked my own ass. I got my leg presses up to 160 lbs and my shoulder presses up to 30 lbs. I am still feeling a bit of the effects from it today! I decided to take yesterday and today off from exercise as my body has decided to rebel. When I woke up on Saturday, I could barely get out of bed - I actually thought I had a flu bug, so went back to sleep. By the time mid-day approached, it was very apparent that I was just exhausted from everything - I've been going through some more stress lately and the stress mixed with the hard exercise made my body to just basically give out. I am glad to say I am feeling a bit better tonight.
I hope everyone has a great week! Push yourselves and don't give up!