My insomnia is back.
It's been back since the second last week in January, and frankly...it's driving me CRAZY.
I went to my doctor about it after two days in a row of basically no sleep. I asked him to let me go back on the Seroquel - even if it was just a really low dose.
He said absolutely not.
Then he wrote me a prescription for Immovane (to use only in emergencies) and sent me on my way. He told me all I needed was to get my sleep cycle back in sync.
That was just over two weeks ago. Yes, it has gotten better marginally...but last night, I went back to a sleepless night after a stressful time at work yesterday.
Why do I do this to myself?! I know better than to bring work home with me!
On the upside, at least I am mostly keeping up with my exercise program - going to the gym four times a week. My nutrition is lacking though. I'm starting to emotionally eat again and that's not good.
I know better.
I WILL get back on track. I WILL NOT let the anxiety consume me like it did a few years back. I am bigger than it, and I know only I can control how I act and feel.
I just need to have patience with myself...yes...patience.
I can do this.