Sunday, October 30, 2011

"YOU Don't Do Yoga!"


We had our Health and Wellness Fair at work this past Thursday.  They had a lot of very informative booths - everything from the Arthritis Society, to World Health, to Survivor Bootcamp...and...The Yoga Studio...

For those of you that don't know, I LOVE Yoga.  I try and do it every Sunday when the opportunity arises.  It's been only since the start of this year that I have taken on a real interest in it.  This summer, I even tried hot yoga.  I am by no means an Ashtanga guru, but I do love the restorative classes.  I love the great stretch that I get and how relaxed it makes me feel. 

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I approached The Yoga Studio booth and was grinning ear to ear - I said "Ooooohhhh!!  YOGA!  The guy at the booth looks me up and down and says "YOU don't do yoga!"  to which my reply was "Oh yes I do...I take a class down at Yoga Santosha."  I then proceeded to show him my old ID card with my big fat face on the front of it.  "This USED to be me." I said.  Not suprisingly, the guy wanted to give me his card and give me 50% a class.  I told him to keep his card.  I was shocked...and then the shock quickly turned to anger.  How could he be so rude like that???  You would think that someone in the fitness industry wouldn't treat people like that.  What I need to realize is that those kinds of people are everywhere - and I clearly need to figure out a way to not let them get to me.  I have been working WAY too hard to let some small-minded person rent space in my head like that. 

So ya...The Yoga Studio won't be getting my business anytime soon...or ever...

It was a pretty hard week for me.  I was sick to my stomach after spin class - which I found was kind of strange - I did push myself, but have pushed harded before.  I think it was mainly due to a mild stomach flu which I woke up to on Tuesday.  I took Wednesday off and rested - I needed it.  I ended up taking Friday, and today off too.  It was kind of nice actually.

We went to the movies last night and saw Crazy Stupid Love and Contagion.  Both movies were great and it was nice to get out of the house for an evening. 

I am looking forward to this week and I am looking forward to my fill appointment on Friday.  I am finding that my hunger is coming back a little more quickly after I have eaten than I would like.  I am hoping we can nip that in the bud.

Have a good week everyone!


Sunday, October 23, 2011

So close...yet so far away?

I am frustrated...

To put it bluntly...I'm REALLY frustrated...

I blogged a couple of weeks ago about how I have been stuck at the same weight for the past couple of months.  The truth is yes I have been stuck at the same weight...but I didn't say what the weight was. 

Today I am 271 lbs.  Last Monday, I was 268...exactly 10 lbs away from 100 lbs down.  It has been an excruciatingly LONG journey to get to this point... I am so close I can almost taste it.  I worked REALLY hard this week - I ate clean, I exercised my butt off (literally)and drank tons of water.  The result???  271 lbs. 

I am trying SO hard to not let a number define me - to define how hard I have worked to get to this point...but it's hard.  I think the next step will be to switch things up with my exercise program... I tried a Y-Bo class yesterday at the YMCA and really liked it.  I know I need to crank things up a notch and do more cardio.  I will continue to do spin classes and add the Y-Bo in there.  I also need to be wary of my knees and not over-do it as I have in the past.  Maybe a day off here and there?  I don't know. 

If there is anyone out there who has been stuck in a long plateau as I have, could you please give me some advice?  Thanks!!

Onto my week...

We had employee appreciation week at work.  It was really nice and it was nice that we were all recognized for doing a good job.  I don't think enough employers out there do that for their employees.  Along with employee appreciaton week, came candy, chocolate, chips and cookies....EACH day.  I did REALLY well up until Friday when I had one to many cookies.  So to put it mildly, it was slightly brutal - I have issues sometimes with self-control.  Throw in PMS and I am screwed.  I was pretty amazed when our site leader brought out a veggie tray on "candy" day and made all of us throw out our candy and dig into the veggies.  It made me feel supported - I liked that.  It's nice that I work with a great group of co-workers that support each other!

On Monday, I did a Tabata spin class.  It was put it mildly lol...we did lots of hill climbs, straight hills, straighways, and lots of intervals.  My Crossfit classes with Kendra were the hardest yet.  On Tuesday she had us doing bearcrawls, crabwalks and lots of agility ladder lats were sore up until yesterday!  I don't think I have been that sore in months.  Wednesday, I went to the YMCA by myself and proceeded to kick my own ass.  I went hard on the bike for my cardio, and then worked my legs on the leg press machine until I couldn't feel my legs.  Saturday I tried out a Y-Bo class at the Y, and today I did a spin class...I worked so hard in spin this morning that my face turned a beautiful shade of purple lol...

Yesterday, my friends Katie and Jarred got married.  The ceremony was absolutely beautiful and Katie was stunning.  I can't think of two people that are more deserving of each other than them.  I hope they will live a long and happy life together - love you guys!!

Hope everyone has a great week!  I hope to break my plateau!



Sunday, October 16, 2011

Another week down...

I enjoyed this past week...

And then the weekend came.

For some stupid/strange reason, I don't like the weekends.  The weekends are supposed to give me all the time in the world to myself - to relax and rejuvenate and get rid of the stress from the week.

But for me - it's the total opposite.

Call me crazy, but I enjoy my work week and the whole routine it brings to my life.  It feels structured, and I feel in control.  On the weekends, I find I think too much...and I don't feel in control of myself.  Eventually this will all catch up with me I'm sure - eventually I will have to relax and have some fun. 

Anyway...on to the important stuff!

I went to my lap-band support group meeting on Wednesday - that was probably the highlight of my week.  I really enjoy seeing all of my fellow lap banders and see how each and every one of them is doing.  I was really happy to see my friend Ginny who had recently been in the hospital - and was really happy to see that she was doing better.  I also learned more about my band and how it works - there were details about it that I didn't even know about - I knew I had to eat slowly with it, but didn't realize just HOW slowly I am supposed to be eating.  All along, I have been eating WAY more quickly than I should be.  I took into consideration everything that was shown to me and am proud to say I have not had anything stuck since Wednesday!  I am finding now that I have had a recent fill also, that I am eating less.  I also stay fuller longer, and that's a good thing.

I went back to yoga tonight too.  I haven't been in a couple of weeks and was really missing it.  I love my yoga class on Sundays.  It gives me the opportunity to unwind and relax.  Most of all tho - I don't have to think about anything! 

I worked out five times this week - and am proud of that.  The Crossfit classes with Kendra were particularly brutal with Thursday's class being the hardest.  It was an hour full of exercises that worked on all the small core muscles and such.  Each exercise, we did 100 reps worth!  By the end of the class, I was dizzy and felt like throwing up.  Needless to say - the pain in my abs finally went away this morning.  Must have been a good workout!

I hope everyone has a great week...



Sunday, October 9, 2011


I've had my membership with the YMCA since September 4th, and I gotta say, I'm pretty impressed.  I enjoy all the drop in fitness classes and I enjoy the weight room floor...but I think most of all, I really love the Fitlinxx System. 

What is Fitlinxx you ask?  Well, basically, it's a computer program that is connected to all of the cardio and weight machines and it tracks your reps, weight and your form.  I use it mainly with the cardio machines - i.e. the stationary bike and the elliptical.  My strength training, I either use the dumbells or the lat pull down and seated row etc.  I try and do my weight training as "manual" as possible.  I have worked on the "machines" a few times, but every time I do, I feel as though I don't get as good as a workout as I would if I was doing it manually with the weights.  For one thing - I'm just sitting there - and it just doesn't feel right to me.  On Wednesday, I hit an all-time goal (I think) for my dumbell chest press...I hit the 50lbs mark.  That's 50 lbs in each hand.  I managed to squeak out five reps, but I still did it - and paid for it the next day!  

So...yeah...I'm happy with the YMCA.  Sure, it's no ALIVE, but it helps with my fitness routine, and for the first time in a long time, I'm feeling motivated and happy about my exercise program.

I seem to have plateaued in the weight side of things...and it's starting to drive me crazy.  My surgeon doesn't seem too concerned about it, but I am.  I'm eating well and exercising like crazy, so eventually the scale will go down - in the right direction.  My clothes are fitting a lot looser and I've been getting lots of comments from people saying that they think I have lost some.  I've just decided to take it day by day and TRY (the operative word here is try) to not be so hard on myself.  I am in no race and there is no hurry to get the rest of my weight off. day at a time...I will beat this plateau!  Stronger both physically and mentally...I will do it.

Cheers and love to all!


Sunday, October 2, 2011

Why I do What I do...

I've had lots of comments from people in the last while stating that they are proud of me...that they are "in awe" by the amount of exercise that I do...that "I am an inspiration" to them.  While these comments always leave a lasting impression on me, and keep me going, there is a real reason behind what and why I do it.

I started this journey over two years ago because I lost my Mom.  My sisters and I found her body in her bed in her home one Saturday night in January 2009.  This is a day I will never forget.  She lost her battle with alcoholism and rheumatoid arthritis.  My Mom battled each day with dignity and courage, but her body just couldn't fight anymore. 

I was 360 lbs then.  Plain and simple - I don't want to end up like my Mom.  I don't want to go back to the 360lb Kristy.  She is gone.  She served her purpose - whatever that was, but she is now a blip in the past.  My Mom is what keeps me going.  Her strength within in me is what has been pushing me to work harder.  She has been the reason for me not giving up when I've wanted to - on numerous occasions I may add.  I've been having a lot of conversations with her lately - I know she can hear me...I can hear her saying "Keep pushing Kris - don't give up"  "Get a grip!"  "Smarten up!" 

Thank you for being an inspriation to me Mom...I love you and I will never give up!

Oh do I miss her... week...has been a bit of a struggle...Monday and Tuesday were great - my workouts were really great.  I am really beginning to love my spin classes tho!  On Wednesday my friend Randi and I went to the YMCA and she and I did my new workout!  She and I did everything from lat pull downs, to seated rows, to leg presses and bicep curls.  She did such a great job and I am so proud of her.  I have to admit, I was kind of happy that she was sore the next that wrong??  lol...  Thursday I took a long walk through my neighborhood - I am glad the weather is still holding out so that we can still do that.  Friday I went back to the YMCA...and kicked my own ass.  I got my leg presses up to 160 lbs and my shoulder presses up to 30 lbs.  I am still feeling a bit of the effects from it today!  I decided to take yesterday and today off from exercise as my body has decided to rebel.  When I woke up on Saturday, I could barely get out of bed - I actually thought I had a flu bug, so went back to sleep.  By the time mid-day approached, it was very apparent that I was just exhausted from everything - I've been going through some more stress lately and the stress mixed with the hard exercise made my body to just basically give out.  I am glad to say I am feeling a bit better tonight.

I hope everyone has a great week!  Push yourselves and don't give up!