Friday, February 25, 2011

10 Things!

Today is my Birthday...I turn more year until the big 4-0!  This coming year is going to be full of excitement, accomplishments, change and of course I'm sure there will be a disappointment here and there along the way.  But I am preparing myself the best way that I can - with that in mind, I have set up 10 goals - some personal (non scale type goals) and some physical (exercise)...

My goals before I reach the age of 40 are:

1.  I want to be able to cross my legs.  I haven't been able to do this in about 20 years.  Guess it's time I started acting like a

2.  I want to be able to do 10 man's pushups without stopping.

3.  I would like to be in a size 18-20 - pants, size large for my tops.

4.  Speaking of sizes - how about a D cup for a bra size??

5.  As much as I HATE doing them - I want to hold a plank for two minutes.

6.  To appreciate veggies more - I got close up and personal with them for my pre op stage and actually don't mind them...I would like to try different ones tho - no more cucumber!

7.  To make myself happy...not depend on others for it.

8.  To deadlift what I used to - 265 lbs...and if I am able - higher

9.  To do three unassisted pull-ups.

10.  By my next birthday - I would like to be in the low 200's...and if possible out of the 200's all together.

So those are my 10 specific goals I would like to achieve by the time I hit 40.  I will take it day by day and know that if I work hard, I will achieve them!

On another note - my healing continues - I've been feeling great and have been getting in my exercise.  I kickboxed for 15 minutes last night - then went on the treadmill and did jogging intervals...I'm really happy about my progress.  Today I start with soft foods...this means I can have eggs!  I can't wait until I get my first fill in six weeks - then I can really get this show on the road.  I'm also losing about a pound a day and loving that - I know it will even itself out eventually, but for now I am just going to enjoy the steady loss...something I haven't been able to enjoy for ME!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Week One...

My first official week as a Bandster is now was a fairly good week, but it certainly did have its ups and downs...

I started off the first week in Airdrie at my Dad's place.  Monday - after only three days after my surgery, I was walking - tonnes...I went for a nice hour long walk through the neighborhood - it felt great to get moving and to get outside and get some fresh air.  I had a great first few days out in Airdrie - my Dad and Step mom were great and took great care of me.

The rest of my week had a few highs and some disappointments - but I did manage to hit a huge weight finally hit below 300lbs.  When I stepped on the scale on Thursday morning it ready 299.8!!  I haven't been that weight since I met Brian back in December of 2000 when I weighed 280.  I was SO excited when I saw that number...all of my hard work that I've done and it's finally showing.  I have created another short term goal and that is to hit 275 lbs by mid April - and I know I can do it!

My diet has consisted of liquids...everything from Jello to low fat yogurt smoothies to just apple juice and I've managed to feel good and still lose weight.  My surgeon and my dieticians told me that in the first six weeks they don't want me to even think of my weight - who are we kidding tho?!  I have been obsessed with my scale since I started the pre op diet a month ago - and I'm okay with's what keeps me grounded and that's what I need that this point.  I started my exercise program again on Friday but have been told by my surgeon that I am only to do light cardio and then after four weeks I can resume my regular exercise program -that means classes and my personal training sessions.  So - I have March 11th circled on my calendar!  I am so excited to get back into that routine and kick some ass!

Here's to a better week ahead!

Sunday, February 13, 2011


I made it!  I am now officially what they call a "Bandster!"  I'm so glad my surgery is over and I can start my new life! 

My surgery day was a true test of my patience... I got to the hospital on time, got checked in and headed up to the Day Surgery Unit.  They got me into a gown (which was about four times too big for me), got my iv in, and settled in for the long wait...Dr. Church had an emergency appendectomy earlier in the day and it set him behind.  While I understood that this patient was MUCH sicker than I, and needed him more, I did get to feel a little impaitient - I think actually, that I was more anxious than anything else and just wanted it done and over with!  I remember getting into the operating room itself, everyone introduced themselves to me, and the anesthesiologist was really nice too :-)  He calmed me down - and I went to sleep.  The next thing I know, I'm in recovery, shaking - so the nurses instantly got me all wrapped up in nice warm blankets - they were great - I also remember two of them admiring my tattoo and asking me if it was an orca that I had on my leg...all I remember is saying I think

I was supposed to stay in recovery for four hours because of my sleep apnea...but after two hours, they could see that I was doing well so they sent me back to the Day Surgery Unit.  I won't go into details about everything - if you would like to know more, you can ask me directly or message me privately :-) It was wonderful that I got to have some visitors afterwards - that made me feel great and calmed me down.

So far, day two post op I am feeling fairly good...I still have quite a bit of pain from the gas that they put into me for the operation, but I am feeling optimistic and happy...I'm SO glad that I had a regular exercise program before this - my body was so prepared and my healing is getting underway.  I am hoping to be back to the gym by the end of the week :-)  I miss everyone there already!

I haven't stepped on the scale yet.  I think I will wait a while before I do that...for now I just want to get stronger - and by the way things are going, that shouldn't be too long!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Almost There!

Well here I am...I am exactly FIVE days away from surgery and almost done my pre-op diet.  I'm so glad it's almost over - at least the pre op part anyway...the next part of my journey is really just beginning.  Lots of people have been asking me if I'm nervous...the answer to that of course, is yes...I'm nervous about the general anesthetic and the overnight stay in the hospital.  But I know everything will go smoothly - my body is strong and healthy and I have made it that way.  I saw Veronica (my therapist) on Friday and we chatted a little about my "nervousness" and we talked about all of the "tools" I have acquired that I can use for when I get to the hospital (or wake up that morning lol) and start to get nervous...I will utilize those tools (or strategies) to the best of my ability and will do just fine.

My weight today is 305.1 lbs - I have lost 22.8 lbs since I started the pre op diet on January 20th.  Already, I am starting to notice changes in myself, not just physically - but mentally also...I'm feeling stronger than I have in a long time - I know how determined I am and know that I can do this. It was a bit of a rough week food-wise at work this week, by this I mean lots of temptations...Thursday and Friday our department had cake - and I totally got through it...was it hard?  Heck ya, but I kept saying to myself that I had come WAY too far to screw it up now...besides - I don't think any of my co-workers would even let me near the stuff anyways...they have been very supportive of me and I am grateful.   I also can't believe I've made it through almost three weeks on 900 calories a day - and I've managed to keep my workouts up - less intense than normal, but I still manage to sweat by the time it's over!

I'd would just like to thank everyone that has helped me and supported me during this  three week "learning experience."  Thank you to my friends and family that have been there to listen when I wanted to give up AND put up with my ridiculous mood my co-workers that wouldn't even let me near the "food drawer" (lol) and to my ALIVE Family who have been supporting me and helping me push through this...My trainer Ben has been so supportive and always manages to make my workouts fun, but still challenging...there were a couple of times this past week that I came to my workouts in a bad mood, but always finished with a smile on my face.  Holly has also been awesome - taking the time to chat with me and help me feel better.   I know I always say this...but I am convinced that if I had not found out about ALIVE I know I wouldn't be where I am today.  I would probably still be sitting in front of my TV - and stuffing my face with ice cream and blaming everyone but myself for the way I was. 

Now I just want to shout it out to the world how happy I excited I am...

Change is a comin'!