I am a sugar addict. Plain and simple. We had a chance to talk about sugar addiction in my lap-band support group class on Wednesday. Sugar addiction is like what an alcoholic goes through with alcohol. If they are given just a little bit of alcohol, they will end up binging. Give a sugar addict even as little as a jelly bean, and they will binge. I tested out that theory on Friday. I have picked Friday as my day to eat a little bit out of my rigid schedule. I ate two jelly beans - and immediately wanted more. I think I ended up having a handful - and by the end of it, was broken out in such a sugar rush sweat, I could hardly handle it. Lesson learned...I just can't have sugar around - I binge. It's a work in progress, but I've done so more more better than I ever have. Eventually I
Something else great happened to me this week. While I was going through some old clothes and putting them in bags ready to get rid of, I came across a pair of jeans that I used to wear when I was 360 lbs. They were a size 32 and I though I would try them on...just to be sure they still didn't fit. Yeah right...they HUNG on me...they were MASSIVE! I asked Brian to take a picture of me - I wanted to see it for myself. I was laughing when I looked down at myself. Then I looked at the picture - and bawled my eyes out. There was this other person looking back at me - I hardly recognized myself. For the first time since I started this journey of mine, I can really and honestly say I am proud of myself and have really noticed my hard work. I have decided to keep this pair of jeans and bring them out when I am ever feeling frustrated with my progress. Get a load of the pic!
I also found out on Tuesday that I got my job permanently. I am now a permanent employee at the DSC! I have looked forward to that day for the past seven months...I am happy and I am content...and that's what matters.
I also saw Joanne (my lap-band psychologist) on Friday. I am making HUGE progress when it comes to my way of thinking, my attitudes toward food, and letting go of the past and staying in the present. She has been a great resource to me and I am VERY grateful for her.
Looking forward to more positive experiences this week! Have a great week everyone!