One item that has been on my mind for a while now is the fact that my trainer Ben is moving away. I have never come out and told him how I feel, as making a big deal out of it would be downright counter-productive. When he first told me, I was anxiety ridden...I kept asking myself these same questions...How would I continue with my journey? How will I actually do this? Will I give up and just be fat again? He has been training me ever since I started - I want him to finish it with me...how will that happen? I have answered these questions recently - I WILL continue this journey on my own and I CAN do it. I have come so far - too far to just give up. I have WAY more self-reliance than I did even a year ago. The time has come to do "this" on my own. As for him being a part of my journey right to the end - he still will be there - just not in person...oh the wonders of email/facebook/skype!
I will miss Ben and Holly VERY much - they have done so much for me and words cannot express how much that means to me. It's not very often that really great/caring people come into your life - they came into my life at that time for a reason - they have guided me and encouraged me and pushed me to the point in my life where I am stronger than I have ever been - and that's just not the physical - I'm stronger mentally and am in such a better place than I was two years ago.
Regardless...I will be okay - I know I will...Ben has given me the "tools" that I need to push through to this next phase of my journey...all I need to do and will do is work as hard as I can...and make myself happy...I believe things happen for a reason - I am excited at what I am going to accomplish...
Look out...HERE I COME.