Well it's been quite the week - that's for sure...I'm glad it's pretty much over because I'm looking forward to starting fresh next week!
This time of year has pretty much always been a difficult time for me. I kept telling myself at the beginning of this month that it was going to be different this time - that I was not going to get my mind stuck in negativity again...but I managed to do it again. I've been thinking a lot about my Mom lately, but the good thing this year is that I'm not stuck in a big cloud of despair - I know that nothing is going to bring her back and that she is at peace - and I miss her - I always will and will always hold her in a special place in my heart...I'm going to really try and be more positive about Christmas this year - I will get to spend it with John and Kelley and Maggie and John's family and that will be wonderful...I will do it in small baby steps - but I will do it!
Secondly - I've had some time to think about my last post and how afraid I was about my upcoming surgery. I've really had some time to think hard and dig deep and I know that I will be able to do this...with regards to the pre-op diet, I'm going to have my good days and bad days, but all I will have to do is just focus...focus on the big picture and not give up. I'm so excited about what my body is going to be capable of once I lose the weight...how strong I'm going to become.
So...I'm going to start with setting some small goals for myself...my first small goal I want to achieve is to be below 300 lbs...and I'm pretty sure with my pre-op diet, I'm going to blow that away! :o)
So much excitement for me in the next coupla months and I know with a focused mind and positive attitude, it's going to be GREAT!