Sunday, January 10, 2010
Ups and Downs
Today, unfortunately...I was off.
But mostly....I hurt. I miss her so much. I wish she was here. I keep having that week before, the day before and the day of her passing coming back into my mind. It still feels so fresh to me - like a scab keeps being ripped off a festering sore. It sucks and I hate it. I'm tired of listening to my other friends talk about their moms cause well...I don't have one anymore. All of this, I've talked to Veronica (my therapist) about and she tells me that it's completely normal what I'm feeling. Well right now...at this very moment, I don't feel normal. I feel empty...I feel cheated.
But most of all...
I feel sad.