Well...I was looking at my last post that I posted a couple of weeks ago and am shaking my head. Man was I sad...I look at the post and find it hard to believe how "back in the dark hole" I was. BUT it's always a new day, and I have to look forward. I typed what I was feeling and that's the whole point of this blog. I'm just glad I'm working through it...baby steps...
This week has been both a week of disappointment and personal growth. The first anniversary of my mom's passing was last sunday - the 17th. My sisters and I spent the weekend together at one of my mom's favorite hotels. It sure was nice to be together. I spent Sunday night out at Airdire at my sister Kathy's place...we sat in her hot tub and played with her dogs...yeah I know - I'm so not a dog person, but it was fun - and then on Monday, we had lunch with my Dad, Stepmom, and brother Rob. It was great to see them all - I don't see my Dad nearly as much as I would like...I'm gonna change that.
I spent most of the week with my eyes glued to my scale. And well...it didn't move! I'm stuck at 329 lbs and frankly it was driving me CRAZY. I was talking to a pathologist at my work and he gave me a reality check. The medication that I'm on is making me retain fluid and LOTS of it. I just need to keep plugging away. Also, Ben my trainer bought me a food journal - I'm going to write down everything I eat..everything I put in my mouth so that I can be held accountable...it's awesome and I'm looking forward to using it.
Oh yeah...and we also got our new furniture yesterday (well most of it) and I was pretty happy about that. We are no longer having to sit on a cooler and hard chair after a day of work. It was nice - I actually fell asleep last night in my loveseat recliner. LOVE IT!
Positive thing is I'm moving forward...I didn't think I would be able to, but I am. It's a slow process, but I'm doing it.
Life Goes On...