My Obsession...The Scale...

Some people have obsessions...some obsess about food, others their hair or make up or what they will wear when they leave the house in the morning.

I have a different obsession...

My scale...

Ya I know - You are probably thinking...so what?  I obsess about my weight all the time!

But I seem to have taken it to an entirely new level in obsessiveness...

Almost two years ago, my therapist diagnosed me with an Adjustment Disorder with anxiety - which means, that I sometimes have a hard time adjusting to change - and I obsess and have some anxiety...most of this can be contributed to the sudden death of my mother and how I have dealt with it.  I have had some pretty huge changes in my life the past few months - from getting myself prepared for my lap-band surgery, to actually having it and adjusting for the first week post op - to losing the gym I belonged to and "safe haven" last month due to flooding.  

The result of this?  Weighing myself...and sometimes twice a day...

Now, I know this is totally self-defeating for me...and will hurt me in the long run - so why do I do it?!  I've thought about it for a while, and have come to this conclusion:  

It makes me feel good - it soothes my anxiety I am feeling at the time...it also helps to "keep me on track."  I want to be able to reach my weight loss goals...and feel if I don't keep on track ALL the time with my weight, I will lose track and then lose control.

Whatever my reasons for doing this, I know it's not healthy what I am doing, and I will be heading into self-destruct mode if I continue.  

So...my plan for myself this week:  I will do this in baby steps...I will only weigh myself ONCE a day...then slowly taper it off until I am only weighing myself once a week - the NORMAL way of doing it!  

I hope everyone has a great week!