Wow...what a week...and I made it!
I'm also happy to say I've been feeling more like my "old" self again, and when I mean "old" I don't mean my age. I am starting to feel like I am in more control of my emotions and actions and more in control of my life. For the past few months, I really haven't been putting forth as much effort towards myself as I would have wanted. I let my emotions get to me. I lost sight of why I am really doing this journey in the first place. Yes, I want to be healthy...yes I want to be happy...but most of all, I want to be in control. I want to be able to decline the piece of cake at work and be okay with it. I want to be strong and capable of anything I set my mind to. I know I have all those attributes I just listed - I'm just having "issues" putting them into play.
Monday I tried out a new bootcamp. My friend Jacquie found a deal off of Living Social - 20 fitness classes for 20 bucks. Jacquie was gracious enough and gave me her other passes that she had. The Bootcamp is called FitBody. The look on my face must have been priceless when I walked into the place and was watching the current class...the first thing I saw they were doing were bearcrawls - I immediately started panicking a little inside. I had done bearcrawls with Ben at Alive - and hated them. We met the instructor Chris and he told us what the class would consist of - then Jacquie blurted out that I wanted to do bearcrawls! lol...so yeah you guessed it...we did bearcrawls, and tractor pulls and side planks, and shoulder presses, just to name a few...the class kind of reminded me of Damir's bootcamp classes...lots of body weight drills and you feel like you just walked out of a torture chamber...lol The thing I loved most about the class, was that I was able to do just about everything I was asked to do and I did them well. I killed it on the bearcrawls too - and yes...I actually really liked them!
I woked up on Tuesday with pain in my lats like I have NEVER had before...and I was excited. I always love it when my muscles hurt as I know I have worked hard. I did Kendra's bootcamp class that evening and we did a tonne of TRX drills...my lats have never had it so good! lol
Wednesday I went and saw my doctor about my knees. He gave me a requisition for another x-ray as he thinks the osteo has made more degeneration in my knees since my last x-ray a year ago. Depending on what the x-rays show, the next step would be cortisone injections. I think I would rather have Synvisc injections, but I will see what happens. He also wants to get an MRI done too. That will be up to a year wait to get that done...should be fun!
Thursday I did Kendra's class again...only three of us showed up, so we were at her mercy...we did tons of pilates drills, using our small core muscles and such. We also did lots of shoulder work...must be why my shoulders are still sore three days later! Good on ya Kendra!
Yesterday, Damir's Saturday morning kickboxing class started up again. I was excited as my Saturdays used to be dedicated to classes of some sort...He put me with a great partner (Jessica) and it was not only a great workout, but I laughed and had fun...it's been such a long time since I've had fun like that in a Saturday class...I can't wait for next Saturday!
And today...I am very happy to say...I finally joined the Shawnessy YMCA!! Brian and I went together - I started off on the bike - did 20 mins on that, and then we proceeded to work out together. I also got myself acquainted with some of the weight machines and Brian helped me out to get me to feel more comfortable using them. I've been so used to having Ben guide me and show me how to do everything, and for the first time on my own today, I think I did pretty damn good! I am also really looking forward to doing their classes too! Who wouldn't love to walk or run on a treadmill and watch a movie through their I-pod or whatnot? lol...my experience there was very positive and I'm really looking forward to going back and getting back on track. The front desk girls name was Samantha too! I cracked a grin when she told me what her name was. That was awesome.
So there's my week in a nutshell...I'm still loving my new job and am damn good at it. I am starting to really love my new routine and I know that in only a short time, the weight will start to melt off again.
I'm excited...bring it on!
Showing posts with label Routine. Show all posts
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Sunday, September 4, 2011
Sunday, July 31, 2011
I'm a Big Girl Now...
So...ya...I did it. I finally did what I've been talking non-stop for for like the last two weeks at least. On Wednesday evening, I finally went to the YMCA and did a class...all by myself.
Out of everything that I have set out to accomplish, this is by far pretty close to the top. I have been spending a lot of time lately, letting my anxiety control me. On Wednesday, I guess I decided I wanted a break from it. I wanted to accomplish something...something big...and for me - I did. It was weird just coming straight home from work - I almost always bring my gym bag with me to work and go directly to the gym from there. I walked through the door, and headed straight to the couch. Brian had been home sick from work - which is probably a good thing now that I think about it. So, I sat there and said "You know - I don't have to go if I don't want to. I COULD just stay home."
Stay home?! And do what?? Sit on the couch and know that once again, my anxiety got the best of me? NO...I wanted to do this...I wanted to prove to myself that I COULD do it on my own.
So I grabbed a snack and headed out the door. While walking to the train station I kept thinking "You can go back Kristy, it's not too late!" But this other voice in my head just kept telling me to keep walking...I also had a couple of friends close by on my Blackberry, and they kept at me. Then when I got to the Y, I stood outside for about 10 minutes - trying to talk myself out of it, when Brian texted me - asking me how I was....it was like he knew what I was doing...lol. So - I went in and did the class...and you know what?? I really enjoyed myself and wondered why I was freaking out in the first place.
I think we all have our "Comfort Zone" that we don't like to break out of from time to time. This time however, it was imparative that I do so. This was one of the reasons why I got so big in the first place. I relied WAY too much on other people and not on myself to get myself well and to become healthy and strong. I am VERY proud of myself and am looking forward to this week's class!
I had another NSV this week. I can now cross my legs! I haven't been able to do that since I was a teenager. I probably won't be doing it much tho - not good for your circulation, but it felt good knowing that I can.
I am also looking forward to this week. I start my new position as a Laboratory Support Clerk back at the DSC. I'm looking forward to seeing everybody that I used to work with, and I'm looking forward to getting back to some sort of a routine.
My goals for this week:
1. Do Wednesday's class again
2. Sleep better
3. Cut out carbs in the evening
Out of everything that I have set out to accomplish, this is by far pretty close to the top. I have been spending a lot of time lately, letting my anxiety control me. On Wednesday, I guess I decided I wanted a break from it. I wanted to accomplish something...something big...and for me - I did. It was weird just coming straight home from work - I almost always bring my gym bag with me to work and go directly to the gym from there. I walked through the door, and headed straight to the couch. Brian had been home sick from work - which is probably a good thing now that I think about it. So, I sat there and said "You know - I don't have to go if I don't want to. I COULD just stay home."
Stay home?! And do what?? Sit on the couch and know that once again, my anxiety got the best of me? NO...I wanted to do this...I wanted to prove to myself that I COULD do it on my own.
So I grabbed a snack and headed out the door. While walking to the train station I kept thinking "You can go back Kristy, it's not too late!" But this other voice in my head just kept telling me to keep walking...I also had a couple of friends close by on my Blackberry, and they kept at me. Then when I got to the Y, I stood outside for about 10 minutes - trying to talk myself out of it, when Brian texted me - asking me how I was....it was like he knew what I was doing...lol. So - I went in and did the class...and you know what?? I really enjoyed myself and wondered why I was freaking out in the first place.
I think we all have our "Comfort Zone" that we don't like to break out of from time to time. This time however, it was imparative that I do so. This was one of the reasons why I got so big in the first place. I relied WAY too much on other people and not on myself to get myself well and to become healthy and strong. I am VERY proud of myself and am looking forward to this week's class!
I had another NSV this week. I can now cross my legs! I haven't been able to do that since I was a teenager. I probably won't be doing it much tho - not good for your circulation, but it felt good knowing that I can.
I am also looking forward to this week. I start my new position as a Laboratory Support Clerk back at the DSC. I'm looking forward to seeing everybody that I used to work with, and I'm looking forward to getting back to some sort of a routine.
My goals for this week:
1. Do Wednesday's class again
2. Sleep better
3. Cut out carbs in the evening
Sunday, April 10, 2011
First Fill and a NSV! (Non-Scale Victory)
I'm so glad to be blogging about something happy and positive today...the past couple of weeks have been not so great in the fact that I've felt lost, and un-focused. Today, I'm feeling like I am finally back on track and ready to meet my goals head on. One goal in particular, is almost achieved already! I said I wanted to be in size 18-20 pants - well yesterday, when trying on jeans at Penningtons, I fit into a size 22! I had a really good feeling even before I walked into the store that it would happen. I've been walking around for the past three weeks walking on the bottoms of my jeans/pants and people have been telling me how ridiculous it looks. I'm not sure why it has taken me so long to buy a new pair of jeans - I guess I just felt comfortable in the old ones - I guess I felt safe. Sometimes I feel safe in my "fat-suit" -it has been my body armour for the past 20 years - protecting me from hurt and other aspects in my life... so I made a pact with myself yesterday, that I will no longer do that anymore - I looked at the picture that I took of myself and can't believe how much weight I have lost - I know, I have heard from a lot of people telling me how incredible I look - and I just say thank you and don't think about much - but I actually finally really noticed yesterday - I look freakin great - I can't believe how much I have slimmed out - I know I have a long ways to go yet, but that picture sure makes me feel that I can keep going!
Earlier on in the week, I set another goal for myself. I am 35 lbs pounds away from losing a total of 100 lbs since I started at ALIVE almost two years ago. June 5th will mark that day - so I have set the goal of 35 lbs by June 5th. I think it's the short-term goals that keep people going and this one definitely will keep me in check!
I also had my first fill on Thursday. Other than it hurting a little, it went really well. Dr. Church is very impressed with my progress so far. My weight loss had stalled in the past couple of weeks, but he said the fill would definitely help with that. I can totally notice the restricted feeling now too - I find that I am full even after drinking a cup of coffee - the feeling of fullness doesn't last of course for very long after drinking, but I stay full after my oatmeal in the morning for FOUR HOURS...I love it - I love my lap band! Check out a video of a typical lap-band fill - this is pretty close to what I had on Thursday - other than the numbing beforehand - I never got that!
My exercise routine has been great too - consistency and routine has been the key for me. My training sessions with Ben have been kicked up a notch (at least it feels like that for me)...near the end of Friday's workout I almost started to cry - he was having me do decline sit-ups, and body weight rows - both of which I find are very hard for me...I wanted to call him every name in the book, but I didn't...maybe one of these days I will lol...I find it hard to call somebody something like that when they are trying to help you - for me, it just seems wrong to do so. Who knows - there's always time...lol I feel great today - like I have accomplished something I'm also trying out a new class at Southland Leisure Centre too - gotta try and mix things up a bit!
So things are starting to come together - I'm starting to get my routine and my "groove" back! And one by one I know I will reach my goals!
What goals have you set for yourself? Plan them...reach out for help if you need and DO IT!
Happy week everyone!
Earlier on in the week, I set another goal for myself. I am 35 lbs pounds away from losing a total of 100 lbs since I started at ALIVE almost two years ago. June 5th will mark that day - so I have set the goal of 35 lbs by June 5th. I think it's the short-term goals that keep people going and this one definitely will keep me in check!
I also had my first fill on Thursday. Other than it hurting a little, it went really well. Dr. Church is very impressed with my progress so far. My weight loss had stalled in the past couple of weeks, but he said the fill would definitely help with that. I can totally notice the restricted feeling now too - I find that I am full even after drinking a cup of coffee - the feeling of fullness doesn't last of course for very long after drinking, but I stay full after my oatmeal in the morning for FOUR HOURS...I love it - I love my lap band! Check out a video of a typical lap-band fill - this is pretty close to what I had on Thursday - other than the numbing beforehand - I never got that!
My exercise routine has been great too - consistency and routine has been the key for me. My training sessions with Ben have been kicked up a notch (at least it feels like that for me)...near the end of Friday's workout I almost started to cry - he was having me do decline sit-ups, and body weight rows - both of which I find are very hard for me...I wanted to call him every name in the book, but I didn't...maybe one of these days I will lol...I find it hard to call somebody something like that when they are trying to help you - for me, it just seems wrong to do so. Who knows - there's always time...lol I feel great today - like I have accomplished something I'm also trying out a new class at Southland Leisure Centre too - gotta try and mix things up a bit!
So things are starting to come together - I'm starting to get my routine and my "groove" back! And one by one I know I will reach my goals!
What goals have you set for yourself? Plan them...reach out for help if you need and DO IT!
Happy week everyone!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
My Comfort Zone
The title for my blog this week is appropriate for me as I find I have become almost addicted to routine and find it hard to go outside my comfort zone. Monday started out great - work was stable, and I headed to a new temporary gym for my workout with Ben. On Tuesday I went back to the same place and did a great workout on the treadmill - did some jogging intervals too, which I hardly ever do - it was nice to push myself - I haven't been doing that enough lately.
On Tuesday, I went for my first dietician visit with Wania (pronounced Vonia). She was impressed with my determination and drive...she told me in the five years that she has been in the Weight Management Program she has never seen anyone as determined and driven when it comes to my eating habits and especially my exercise program. Then she asked me something that is still resonating in my head... "Kristy - what do you do for FUN?" I just looked at her blankly...I said "I have fun...I go to the gym...I go to movies." We continued to go through my menu plan with a fine toothed comb - she got to the end of it and looked up at me... "Kristy - I want you to pick a day out of the whole week and eat whatever you want." I looked at her - she was staring at me - almost seemed like she was glaring - then it came... the tears...again...it seems that I've been doing that a lot lately and at the stupidest things..."But Wania - I can't do that...I just can't...THAT'S how I got so huge in the first place...please don't ask me to do that." By the end of the conversation we settled on a small dark chocolate bar - I just wanted her to stop asking me! The best part came at the end of my appointment...she weighed me and I was down to 290lbs!! I am now down 37.5 lbs since my pre-op weight of 327.9 lbs...I've almost hit 40lbs since January 20th...can't wait to hit that - I'm hoping this week I do.
Wednesday I did Damir's kickboxing class and LOVED it...it was great to get back into it - and it felt great to get a wicked sweat on. I slept like a baby that night...lol
Thursday wasn't so great...I got word from Ben that things didn't work out with the temporary gym we were using - but he was on the hunt for a new place. So after work I went to the Canyon Meadows Fitness Centre...it felt weird to go to a different place after all the time that I have spent at ALIVE - but I wanted to make sure I kept up my exercise routine...so I went on the treadmill for a while and did some weights - it wasn't the same, but I did it...and by myself! I left feeling okay - but proud of myself because I had gone out of my comfort zone - something I rarely do. By the time I got home, I had found out from Ben that he had secured a new temporary gym called U-Thrive - downtown and fairly close to the ALIVE location. I was relieved...and excited about my workout for the next day...
Friday was great - one of the best days out of the week for sure - work was great and then followed up by a great workout - it felt like old times...like time had stood still...the next day I participated in Ben's Bootcamp and that was awesome too - it was great to see a few of the other members from ALIVE and catch up a bit! I also saw my doctor yesterday and he checked my blood pressure - for those of you that don't know - I've struggled a bit in terms of that - had borderline hypertension with a BP of 140/96 a year or so ago - it's now down to 120/70!! He told me that I no longer have to get it checked...as long as I'm keeping up with my exercise and weight loss.
I'm looking forward to this week ahead...I want to be 40 lbs down by the end of it...I want to go hard in the gym and try to go outside my comfort zone...
We'll see...
On Tuesday, I went for my first dietician visit with Wania (pronounced Vonia). She was impressed with my determination and drive...she told me in the five years that she has been in the Weight Management Program she has never seen anyone as determined and driven when it comes to my eating habits and especially my exercise program. Then she asked me something that is still resonating in my head... "Kristy - what do you do for FUN?" I just looked at her blankly...I said "I have fun...I go to the gym...I go to movies." We continued to go through my menu plan with a fine toothed comb - she got to the end of it and looked up at me... "Kristy - I want you to pick a day out of the whole week and eat whatever you want." I looked at her - she was staring at me - almost seemed like she was glaring - then it came... the tears...again...it seems that I've been doing that a lot lately and at the stupidest things..."But Wania - I can't do that...I just can't...THAT'S how I got so huge in the first place...please don't ask me to do that." By the end of the conversation we settled on a small dark chocolate bar - I just wanted her to stop asking me! The best part came at the end of my appointment...she weighed me and I was down to 290lbs!! I am now down 37.5 lbs since my pre-op weight of 327.9 lbs...I've almost hit 40lbs since January 20th...can't wait to hit that - I'm hoping this week I do.
Wednesday I did Damir's kickboxing class and LOVED it...it was great to get back into it - and it felt great to get a wicked sweat on. I slept like a baby that night...lol
Thursday wasn't so great...I got word from Ben that things didn't work out with the temporary gym we were using - but he was on the hunt for a new place. So after work I went to the Canyon Meadows Fitness Centre...it felt weird to go to a different place after all the time that I have spent at ALIVE - but I wanted to make sure I kept up my exercise routine...so I went on the treadmill for a while and did some weights - it wasn't the same, but I did it...and by myself! I left feeling okay - but proud of myself because I had gone out of my comfort zone - something I rarely do. By the time I got home, I had found out from Ben that he had secured a new temporary gym called U-Thrive - downtown and fairly close to the ALIVE location. I was relieved...and excited about my workout for the next day...
Friday was great - one of the best days out of the week for sure - work was great and then followed up by a great workout - it felt like old times...like time had stood still...the next day I participated in Ben's Bootcamp and that was awesome too - it was great to see a few of the other members from ALIVE and catch up a bit! I also saw my doctor yesterday and he checked my blood pressure - for those of you that don't know - I've struggled a bit in terms of that - had borderline hypertension with a BP of 140/96 a year or so ago - it's now down to 120/70!! He told me that I no longer have to get it checked...as long as I'm keeping up with my exercise and weight loss.
I'm looking forward to this week ahead...I want to be 40 lbs down by the end of it...I want to go hard in the gym and try to go outside my comfort zone...
We'll see...
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