It's late November...and the Christmas season is almost upon us.
Every Christmas since my mom passed away has been a hard time for me. I won't lie - I've been a miserable, negative person to be around. For the past four Christmas's I have had a hard time being cheery and just haven't been in the mood to celebrate the Christmas spirit.
This year seems different.
I woke up one morning last weekend and just decided that enough was enough. Yes, I miss my mom terribly at this time of year, but really...it is time to move on. It's time to be happy and make the most of this season. We haven't even had a tree the past four years because I just felt too sad to even look at one.
Today when we went grocery shopping, I walked myself over to the seasonal department at the WalMart and picked out a wreath that I am proud of putting on our door. Next week - I am planning on picking out a tree!
I am proud of myself - to come this far. I will never forget my mom - especially at this time of year, but I know in my heart, I have finally accepted the fact she is no longer here and I am okay with it.
Now...an update on my band...I saw my dietician a couple of weeks ago. She and I went through my food journals with a fine tooth comb, and while yes, I have a day here and a day there where I went off plan, there is no solid reason as to why I have gained the amount of weight I have. She suggested I see a specialist in Internal Medicine to see if there is another reason behind it. She also suggested I see my surgeon - which I have. He thinks I MAY have a small slip in my band - and set up an Upper GI for December 5th. If this is the case, I will need the band removed.
I've also been doing an awesome boxing class for the past couple of months. My friend Angela and I have been doing it together! We both keep each other motivated each class - in fact, we are the only beginners left in the class since the beginning - I am so proud of us!
The last time I saw my doctor, he began to get on me about my weight. I told him I was frustrated and that I would start seeing my dietician on a regular basis - that I am taking responsibility for my gain, but there is another reason behind it too. As I was leaving the exam room, he shook my hand and looked at me and said "Please don't give up." I looked at him in surprise and said "No, I won't give up - I have come WAY too far to give up."
That is all.
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Sunday, November 24, 2013
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Have Patience!
Well here I am again...two weeks in a row in fact.
I've had a pretty damn good week, and it ended even better this morning with the awesome news that a friend of a friend had woken up from her two week coma. She had been diagnosed with bacterial pneumonia and had to be intubated. This past Tuesday, her family had been told that all hope was lost and she was not going to wake up, and her lungs were so necrosed from the infection. Well lo and behold, this morning she opened her eyes and knew who everyone was and what was going on. It's going to be a long haul of healing for her, but at least we know she will be fine.
I saw my lap band dietitian and surgeon on Friday. I won't deny it, I was nervous and worried about how the whole thing was going to go down. I chatted for a while with the dietitian and when I told her about what my therapist had told me she was quite disappointed with what I had been told. We also agreed that I had not been coming in enough to get my fills - in other words, I had not been using my band to the fullest. By the end of our meeting, we had made a deal that I was going to make regular monthly appointments to get my fills until I had hit my sweet spot and start losing regularly. She was impressed with the fact that I had lost over 9 lbs in two weeks - but that I need to lean on them more and work my band the way it's supposed to. My surgeon agreed with all of this and was really great with me. When I told him I was considering getting my band removed, he replied with "You know Kristy, there is a reason you were chosen for this surgery. You have the determination, and perseverance and discipline to do this, so I think you just need to have more patience and work the band like it's supposed to." He gave me .4cc's and I have to say, it feels like it's the most restriction I have ever had. I now have a total of 6.6 cc's in my 10 cc band. Other than an episode with some peanut butter yesterday, I've been really cautious with what I put in my mouth and the amount I put in my mouth. I only eat until I am no longer hungry and it feels good. I hope this amount of restriction stays.
Another great thing to happen this week was that I deadlifted 215 lbs on Wednesday. I wasn't sure if I could do it, but with Patrick and Brian pushing me and supporting me to get there, I did it. It felt so good to get back to that point again. My knees felt good aftewards and the only thing to bother me a bit was my right elbow - which is kind of weird but whatever. I am hoping to up the weight by 5 lbs this week so we will see.
Also, on Friday I when I stepped on the scale, I managed to lose 1.3 lbs. That's 9.3 lbs in two weeks! I have been so careful with what I've been eating lately. I do admit, I have had a couple of minor oops's at work, but I've really tried hard to use my willpower skills :-)
This week is going to be even better...I can feel it!
Have a great week everyone!
I've had a pretty damn good week, and it ended even better this morning with the awesome news that a friend of a friend had woken up from her two week coma. She had been diagnosed with bacterial pneumonia and had to be intubated. This past Tuesday, her family had been told that all hope was lost and she was not going to wake up, and her lungs were so necrosed from the infection. Well lo and behold, this morning she opened her eyes and knew who everyone was and what was going on. It's going to be a long haul of healing for her, but at least we know she will be fine.
I saw my lap band dietitian and surgeon on Friday. I won't deny it, I was nervous and worried about how the whole thing was going to go down. I chatted for a while with the dietitian and when I told her about what my therapist had told me she was quite disappointed with what I had been told. We also agreed that I had not been coming in enough to get my fills - in other words, I had not been using my band to the fullest. By the end of our meeting, we had made a deal that I was going to make regular monthly appointments to get my fills until I had hit my sweet spot and start losing regularly. She was impressed with the fact that I had lost over 9 lbs in two weeks - but that I need to lean on them more and work my band the way it's supposed to. My surgeon agreed with all of this and was really great with me. When I told him I was considering getting my band removed, he replied with "You know Kristy, there is a reason you were chosen for this surgery. You have the determination, and perseverance and discipline to do this, so I think you just need to have more patience and work the band like it's supposed to." He gave me .4cc's and I have to say, it feels like it's the most restriction I have ever had. I now have a total of 6.6 cc's in my 10 cc band. Other than an episode with some peanut butter yesterday, I've been really cautious with what I put in my mouth and the amount I put in my mouth. I only eat until I am no longer hungry and it feels good. I hope this amount of restriction stays.
Another great thing to happen this week was that I deadlifted 215 lbs on Wednesday. I wasn't sure if I could do it, but with Patrick and Brian pushing me and supporting me to get there, I did it. It felt so good to get back to that point again. My knees felt good aftewards and the only thing to bother me a bit was my right elbow - which is kind of weird but whatever. I am hoping to up the weight by 5 lbs this week so we will see.
Also, on Friday I when I stepped on the scale, I managed to lose 1.3 lbs. That's 9.3 lbs in two weeks! I have been so careful with what I've been eating lately. I do admit, I have had a couple of minor oops's at work, but I've really tried hard to use my willpower skills :-)
This week is going to be even better...I can feel it!
Have a great week everyone!
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