It's summer.
But I know you already know that.
Summer is that time of year where people relax, take vacations, and enjoy the weather.
I did all of the above - I didn't go anywhere this year - we usually just stick around town and have our "staycation" and go to movies and hang out with friends. The last couple of summers, I have been very rigid with myself when it comes to my exericise regime and my eating habits.
This year...not so much.
I wanted to relax more - which apparently I needed to do. I got out with friends and went to a few movies. But I also cut back on my exercise and pretty much ate what I wanted.
And yeah...I've gained a little bit of weight. But you know what? Oh well.
This time around, I'm not going to freak out about it. I have worked really freaking hard lately and I know I will lose the weight again. I fell off the wagon, but have gotten back on. Shit happens...and I'm dealing with it. I wanted to have fun this summer and I did...my routine fell out the window - my fitness classes at the YMCA ended for the summer and I was on my own - or I felt that way...and that's okay. I know how to kick my own ass when I need to.
Onto more positive things...I got a new job! It's the Administrative Assistant position in the same department where I am presently. It's a step up and I am so happy about it. I am happy that I get to stay working with the same great group that I currently work with. I am hoping to start it near the end of September, but that will be dependant on how the training goes with the person that takes over my present position.
So that's my summer so far in a nutshell...lots of relaxing, laughing, and just having fun - something I just haven't done in a LONG TIME...oh ya...and a new job to look forward to!
In case you are wondering...yes I am back to my routine...eating clean (well most of the time) and exercising 5-6 times a week.
Onwards and upwards!
K
Showing posts with label YMCA. Show all posts
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Thursday, August 16, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
A New Goal
When I started my Journey over three years ago, Ben (my trainer) and I sat down and wrote down some goals that I wanted to achieve. We talked about how I wanted to be healthier and thinner, and we talked about how I wanted to be happy. While I have worked extremely hard at achieving these, they will always be an ongoing work in progress.
I have set a new goal for myself. I don't want to obsess about my weight anymore. To be honest...it's really getting to me. I will lose 10 pounds, then I'm up three...then I will lose three and be up two...
Get my drift?
Back in the fall of 2009, Ben introduced me to deadlifting. It was by far one of the exercises/drills he would have me do, and to be honest, I ROCKED at it. I ended up lifting as heavy as 265 lbs. My goal at that time was 300 lbs, but I never did it. I let my head crap get the best of me. Ben told me back then that he felt I could compete if I wanted to. At that point in my journey, I had so much garbage going on in my head - that I decided I couldn't do it. I had an obstacle in front of me - telling me that I couldn't do it. The obstacle was myself. So...I let it all go - decided I couldn't do it anymore and just tried to forget about it.
Until this past Saturday. Brian and I were at the YMCA working out and I decided I wanted to try to deadlift again. I have deadlifted from time to time since 2009, but have never really taken it seriously. Saturday, for some reason, I did. I did sets of five, each time going heavier and heavier. Then when I was taking a break, I looked to my left and saw this woman doing the exact same thing I was doing...I watched her out of the corner of my eye - she was doing snatches and cleans with heavy weight - I was amazed...we both looked at each other at the same time and so I complimented her. She came up to me and we started talking - I told her I had lifted as heavy as 265 lbs - and that I was wanting to work towards that again. She told me that I should be competing, if I wanted to lift that heavy. She told me I had great form and all I needed were some minor tweaks and to work on my breathing techniques. That's when she told me she had been a Women's Olympic Weight Lifting Coach. She gave me her name - which is Lynn - and she gave me her number and email address. The we went for a walk around the track and she gave me a "pep talk." She said if I needed ANY help at all, that she would help me get into competition "mode." We also talked a little bit about diet and things like that. I have already sent her an email and hope to hear back from her soon.
I now feel I have the confidence to do this. I want to be healthier and more fit of course, but I also want to be stronger than I ever had been in my life - and I am well on my way. I know with the proper coaching, and perseverance and hard work on my part, I can do it. I've always had the outer strength to do this - now I need to work harder on my inner strength!
I'm excited...I have a new goal to work towards...Weightlifting competition...HERE I COME!
I have set a new goal for myself. I don't want to obsess about my weight anymore. To be honest...it's really getting to me. I will lose 10 pounds, then I'm up three...then I will lose three and be up two...
Get my drift?
Back in the fall of 2009, Ben introduced me to deadlifting. It was by far one of the exercises/drills he would have me do, and to be honest, I ROCKED at it. I ended up lifting as heavy as 265 lbs. My goal at that time was 300 lbs, but I never did it. I let my head crap get the best of me. Ben told me back then that he felt I could compete if I wanted to. At that point in my journey, I had so much garbage going on in my head - that I decided I couldn't do it. I had an obstacle in front of me - telling me that I couldn't do it. The obstacle was myself. So...I let it all go - decided I couldn't do it anymore and just tried to forget about it.
Until this past Saturday. Brian and I were at the YMCA working out and I decided I wanted to try to deadlift again. I have deadlifted from time to time since 2009, but have never really taken it seriously. Saturday, for some reason, I did. I did sets of five, each time going heavier and heavier. Then when I was taking a break, I looked to my left and saw this woman doing the exact same thing I was doing...I watched her out of the corner of my eye - she was doing snatches and cleans with heavy weight - I was amazed...we both looked at each other at the same time and so I complimented her. She came up to me and we started talking - I told her I had lifted as heavy as 265 lbs - and that I was wanting to work towards that again. She told me that I should be competing, if I wanted to lift that heavy. She told me I had great form and all I needed were some minor tweaks and to work on my breathing techniques. That's when she told me she had been a Women's Olympic Weight Lifting Coach. She gave me her name - which is Lynn - and she gave me her number and email address. The we went for a walk around the track and she gave me a "pep talk." She said if I needed ANY help at all, that she would help me get into competition "mode." We also talked a little bit about diet and things like that. I have already sent her an email and hope to hear back from her soon.
I now feel I have the confidence to do this. I want to be healthier and more fit of course, but I also want to be stronger than I ever had been in my life - and I am well on my way. I know with the proper coaching, and perseverance and hard work on my part, I can do it. I've always had the outer strength to do this - now I need to work harder on my inner strength!
I'm excited...I have a new goal to work towards...Weightlifting competition...HERE I COME!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Inner Strength
Wow...the past couple of weeks have been a blur... I've had so many things - and good things happen to me in such a short period of time. Two Saturdays ago, my friend Jeanette and I went to the Y together to work out - she was interested in knowing a little more about deadlifts, and the free weights. I was so excited and happy to show her what I have learned. As I was showing her how to do a proper deadlift, a guy came up to us and told me that he had been watching me for the past couple of weeks and noticed that I was using great form with all my exercises. He asked if I had trained with a personal trainer. I told him yes and he said that it showed. Anyway, it felt great inside knowing that someone else noticed that I take my exercise regime seriously. It gave me that extra confidence boost! Jeanette did a super great job with her deadlifts and I am looking forward to working out with her every other Saturday...it will be great to have a workout buddy and to have someone there to push me!
This past Tuesday, I showed up at my regular spin class. Tammy, the instructor came up to me as I was setting up my bike before class started. I have never really talked to her except to say hi and the odd little conversation here and there. She came right out and told me that she has never met anyone as dedicated to my exercise and my health as me. She told me that my "cardio endurance must be incredible" and then she told me that I was an inspiration to HER. I was a inspiration to her?? I was speechless...I mean, I've had my other instructors and trainers say that they are proud of me and that I've done a great job, but never have I been told I'm an inspiration to them. I've been told by my peers that I inspire them to lead a better lifestyle - but not someone of an authority type figure. I was taken aback, and very humbled by her comment. What a great memory to have!
I also ended this week on a really high note. After being on Seroquel - an anti-psychotic medication that my doctor prescribed for me for my chronic insomnia issues after my mother died - for almost three years, I FINALLY weaned myself off of it entirely. I have tried four times unsucessfully to get off the stuff and this last time, with a huge amount of patience and perseverance, I did it. My brain is still feeling some of the aftershock type "twinges" that people can get from ceasing the drug - my doctor says it may take up to six months before it's entirely out of my system, but whatever...I've done it and won't ever be going back. I would like to extend a HUGE thank you to all of my friends, co-workers and family - in particular my husband Brian - who have been there for me while I have been going through my withdrawl periods. Your patience and your understanding have been incredible. Thank you.
I had an interesting experience yesterday morning at the Y while I was working out. I was laying on my mat in the stretching area doing my ab routine when this woman came and laid down beside me. She immediately started talking to me. I was polite, but basically just tuned her out. That was until she insulted me. She said "You know, I know of some special shakes that I can sell to people as big as you." Now, I know what you are probably thinking...WTF!? Seriously??!! And I won't lie - I was furious. But you know what I did? I laughed at her. I looked her straight in the eye and said "Well YOU know...there are special drugs that stupid people like you can take and there is botox and creams out there to help with your ugly, wrinkled, over-sun-baked leathery skin!" I smiled at her again and proceeded to get up - I then told her to have a great day. As I walked away, I looked back at her and she was still laying there with her mouth gaped open in surprise. I'm sure she was pretty embarrassed. I hope she was. It was a rude, and hurtful thing to say - even if she did think she was meaning well. The old me probably would have started yelling at her and maybe even popped her one in the mouth. But I didn't...I walked away and laughed. Stupid people like that are worth laughing at. They don't deserve my time and energy. I am proud of myself.
I am also getting closer to my 100 lb goal. I don't want to say how many pounds I'm down now as I don't want to jinx it! It shouldn't be long though...will keep everyone posted!
Love and hugs to all!
K
This past Tuesday, I showed up at my regular spin class. Tammy, the instructor came up to me as I was setting up my bike before class started. I have never really talked to her except to say hi and the odd little conversation here and there. She came right out and told me that she has never met anyone as dedicated to my exercise and my health as me. She told me that my "cardio endurance must be incredible" and then she told me that I was an inspiration to HER. I was a inspiration to her?? I was speechless...I mean, I've had my other instructors and trainers say that they are proud of me and that I've done a great job, but never have I been told I'm an inspiration to them. I've been told by my peers that I inspire them to lead a better lifestyle - but not someone of an authority type figure. I was taken aback, and very humbled by her comment. What a great memory to have!
I also ended this week on a really high note. After being on Seroquel - an anti-psychotic medication that my doctor prescribed for me for my chronic insomnia issues after my mother died - for almost three years, I FINALLY weaned myself off of it entirely. I have tried four times unsucessfully to get off the stuff and this last time, with a huge amount of patience and perseverance, I did it. My brain is still feeling some of the aftershock type "twinges" that people can get from ceasing the drug - my doctor says it may take up to six months before it's entirely out of my system, but whatever...I've done it and won't ever be going back. I would like to extend a HUGE thank you to all of my friends, co-workers and family - in particular my husband Brian - who have been there for me while I have been going through my withdrawl periods. Your patience and your understanding have been incredible. Thank you.
I had an interesting experience yesterday morning at the Y while I was working out. I was laying on my mat in the stretching area doing my ab routine when this woman came and laid down beside me. She immediately started talking to me. I was polite, but basically just tuned her out. That was until she insulted me. She said "You know, I know of some special shakes that I can sell to people as big as you." Now, I know what you are probably thinking...WTF!? Seriously??!! And I won't lie - I was furious. But you know what I did? I laughed at her. I looked her straight in the eye and said "Well YOU know...there are special drugs that stupid people like you can take and there is botox and creams out there to help with your ugly, wrinkled, over-sun-baked leathery skin!" I smiled at her again and proceeded to get up - I then told her to have a great day. As I walked away, I looked back at her and she was still laying there with her mouth gaped open in surprise. I'm sure she was pretty embarrassed. I hope she was. It was a rude, and hurtful thing to say - even if she did think she was meaning well. The old me probably would have started yelling at her and maybe even popped her one in the mouth. But I didn't...I walked away and laughed. Stupid people like that are worth laughing at. They don't deserve my time and energy. I am proud of myself.
I am also getting closer to my 100 lb goal. I don't want to say how many pounds I'm down now as I don't want to jinx it! It shouldn't be long though...will keep everyone posted!
Love and hugs to all!
K
Sunday, December 4, 2011
I HAVE Figured It Out!
It's been a pretty good week to say the least. As I said in my post last week, I was having issues with eating enough calories. I ended up upping them to 2,000 calories a day on the days where my workouts were strenuous. The result at the end of the week?? A LOSS of 4.6 lbs! I am totally back on track and feeling positive and upbeat.
I'm also pretty happy about my new fitness routine. I have found my "Niche" at the YMCA. I attend classes there almost every day but Wednesdays...those days I save for my strength training. I am making some new social connections and really enjoying it.
I've had a couple of people approach me this week and ask me how I stay motivated? Well, I can sum it up in about three answers:
1. I don't EVER want to go back to the way I was 2.5 years ago. I am terrified of being over 300 lbs again.
2. My mother. Even though she is gone, she is a HUGE driving force inside me. In her own way, she let's me know when I need to step it up or smarten up or whatever.
3. I hired a personal trainer and a damn good one. Ben taught and showed me so much about exercise and what I was truly capable of achieving. I went from hardly being able to bench-press the bar, to pressing upwards of 120 lbs. After I started seeing results, I wanted to keep going. While I don't train with Ben anymore, my love of exercise continues. Every time I get frustrated with something in my fitness routine, I think to myself "What would Ben do?" A personal trainer can push you beyond what you never thought you could do. I have made exercise a part of my life. I no longer think of it as a chore. It's what I am.
So those of you out there that need movitation - Believe in yourself, push yourself and most of all, just be yourself...and NEVER GIVE UP!
Wish me luck for my weigh in on Friday!
Hugs to everyone!
K
I'm also pretty happy about my new fitness routine. I have found my "Niche" at the YMCA. I attend classes there almost every day but Wednesdays...those days I save for my strength training. I am making some new social connections and really enjoying it.
I've had a couple of people approach me this week and ask me how I stay motivated? Well, I can sum it up in about three answers:
1. I don't EVER want to go back to the way I was 2.5 years ago. I am terrified of being over 300 lbs again.
2. My mother. Even though she is gone, she is a HUGE driving force inside me. In her own way, she let's me know when I need to step it up or smarten up or whatever.
3. I hired a personal trainer and a damn good one. Ben taught and showed me so much about exercise and what I was truly capable of achieving. I went from hardly being able to bench-press the bar, to pressing upwards of 120 lbs. After I started seeing results, I wanted to keep going. While I don't train with Ben anymore, my love of exercise continues. Every time I get frustrated with something in my fitness routine, I think to myself "What would Ben do?" A personal trainer can push you beyond what you never thought you could do. I have made exercise a part of my life. I no longer think of it as a chore. It's what I am.
So those of you out there that need movitation - Believe in yourself, push yourself and most of all, just be yourself...and NEVER GIVE UP!
Wish me luck for my weigh in on Friday!
Hugs to everyone!
K
Sunday, October 23, 2011
So close...yet so far away?
I am frustrated...
To put it bluntly...I'm REALLY frustrated...
I blogged a couple of weeks ago about how I have been stuck at the same weight for the past couple of months. The truth is yes I have been stuck at the same weight...but I didn't say what the weight was.
Today I am 271 lbs. Last Monday, I was 268...exactly 10 lbs away from 100 lbs down. It has been an excruciatingly LONG journey to get to this point... I am so close I canalmost taste it. I worked REALLY hard this week - I ate clean, I exercised my butt off (literally)and drank tons of water. The result??? 271 lbs.
I am trying SO hard to not let a number define me - to define how hard I have worked to get to this point...but it's hard. I think the next step will be to switch things up with my exercise program... I tried a Y-Bo class yesterday at the YMCA and really liked it. I know I need to crank things up a notch and do more cardio. I will continue to do spin classes and add the Y-Bo in there. I also need to be wary of my knees and not over-do it as I have in the past. Maybe a day off here and there? I don't know.
If there is anyone out there who has been stuck in a long plateau as I have, could you please give me some advice? Thanks!!
Onto my week...
We had employee appreciation week at work. It was really nice and it was nice that we were all recognized for doing a good job. I don't think enough employers out there do that for their employees. Along with employee appreciaton week, came candy, chocolate, chips and cookies....EACH day. I did REALLY well up until Friday when I had one to many cookies. So to put it mildly, it was slightly brutal - I have issues sometimes with self-control. Throw in PMS and I am screwed. I was pretty amazed when our site leader brought out a veggie tray on "candy" day and made all of us throw out our candy and dig into the veggies. It made me feel supported - I liked that. It's nice that I work with a great group of co-workers that support each other!
On Monday, I did a Tabata spin class. It was crazy...to put it mildly lol...we did lots of hill climbs, straight hills, straighways, and lots of intervals. My Crossfit classes with Kendra were the hardest yet. On Tuesday she had us doing bearcrawls, crabwalks and lots of agility ladder drills...my lats were sore up until yesterday! I don't think I have been that sore in months. Wednesday, I went to the YMCA by myself and proceeded to kick my own ass. I went hard on the bike for my cardio, and then worked my legs on the leg press machine until I couldn't feel my legs. Saturday I tried out a Y-Bo class at the Y, and today I did a spin class...I worked so hard in spin this morning that my face turned a beautiful shade of purple lol...
Yesterday, my friends Katie and Jarred got married. The ceremony was absolutely beautiful and Katie was stunning. I can't think of two people that are more deserving of each other than them. I hope they will live a long and happy life together - love you guys!!
Hope everyone has a great week! I hope to break my plateau!
HUGS!!
Kris
To put it bluntly...I'm REALLY frustrated...
I blogged a couple of weeks ago about how I have been stuck at the same weight for the past couple of months. The truth is yes I have been stuck at the same weight...but I didn't say what the weight was.
Today I am 271 lbs. Last Monday, I was 268...exactly 10 lbs away from 100 lbs down. It has been an excruciatingly LONG journey to get to this point... I am so close I can
I am trying SO hard to not let a number define me - to define how hard I have worked to get to this point...but it's hard. I think the next step will be to switch things up with my exercise program... I tried a Y-Bo class yesterday at the YMCA and really liked it. I know I need to crank things up a notch and do more cardio. I will continue to do spin classes and add the Y-Bo in there. I also need to be wary of my knees and not over-do it as I have in the past. Maybe a day off here and there? I don't know.
If there is anyone out there who has been stuck in a long plateau as I have, could you please give me some advice? Thanks!!
Onto my week...
We had employee appreciation week at work. It was really nice and it was nice that we were all recognized for doing a good job. I don't think enough employers out there do that for their employees. Along with employee appreciaton week, came candy, chocolate, chips and cookies....EACH day. I did REALLY well up until Friday when I had one to many cookies. So to put it mildly, it was slightly brutal - I have issues sometimes with self-control. Throw in PMS and I am screwed. I was pretty amazed when our site leader brought out a veggie tray on "candy" day and made all of us throw out our candy and dig into the veggies. It made me feel supported - I liked that. It's nice that I work with a great group of co-workers that support each other!
On Monday, I did a Tabata spin class. It was crazy...to put it mildly lol...we did lots of hill climbs, straight hills, straighways, and lots of intervals. My Crossfit classes with Kendra were the hardest yet. On Tuesday she had us doing bearcrawls, crabwalks and lots of agility ladder drills...my lats were sore up until yesterday! I don't think I have been that sore in months. Wednesday, I went to the YMCA by myself and proceeded to kick my own ass. I went hard on the bike for my cardio, and then worked my legs on the leg press machine until I couldn't feel my legs. Saturday I tried out a Y-Bo class at the Y, and today I did a spin class...I worked so hard in spin this morning that my face turned a beautiful shade of purple lol...
Yesterday, my friends Katie and Jarred got married. The ceremony was absolutely beautiful and Katie was stunning. I can't think of two people that are more deserving of each other than them. I hope they will live a long and happy life together - love you guys!!
Hope everyone has a great week! I hope to break my plateau!
HUGS!!
Kris
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Fitlinxx
I've had my membership with the YMCA since September 4th, and I gotta say, I'm pretty impressed. I enjoy all the drop in fitness classes and I enjoy the weight room floor...but I think most of all, I really love the Fitlinxx System.
What is Fitlinxx you ask? Well, basically, it's a computer program that is connected to all of the cardio and weight machines and it tracks your reps, weight and your form. I use it mainly with the cardio machines - i.e. the stationary bike and the elliptical. My strength training, I either use the dumbells or the lat pull down and seated row etc. I try and do my weight training as "manual" as possible. I have worked on the "machines" a few times, but every time I do, I feel as though I don't get as good as a workout as I would if I was doing it manually with the weights. For one thing - I'm just sitting there - and it just doesn't feel right to me. On Wednesday, I hit an all-time goal (I think) for my dumbell chest press...I hit the 50lbs mark. That's 50 lbs in each hand. I managed to squeak out five reps, but I still did it - and paid for it the next day!
So...yeah...I'm happy with the YMCA. Sure, it's no ALIVE, but it helps with my fitness routine, and for the first time in a long time, I'm feeling motivated and happy about my exercise program.
I seem to have plateaued in the weight side of things...and it's starting to drive me crazy. My surgeon doesn't seem too concerned about it, but I am. I'm eating well and exercising like crazy, so eventually the scale will go down - in the right direction. My clothes are fitting a lot looser and I've been getting lots of comments from people saying that they think I have lost some. I've just decided to take it day by day and TRY (the operative word here is try) to not be so hard on myself. I am in no race and there is no hurry to get the rest of my weight off.
So...one day at a time...I will beat this plateau! Stronger both physically and mentally...I will do it.
Cheers and love to all!
K
What is Fitlinxx you ask? Well, basically, it's a computer program that is connected to all of the cardio and weight machines and it tracks your reps, weight and your form. I use it mainly with the cardio machines - i.e. the stationary bike and the elliptical. My strength training, I either use the dumbells or the lat pull down and seated row etc. I try and do my weight training as "manual" as possible. I have worked on the "machines" a few times, but every time I do, I feel as though I don't get as good as a workout as I would if I was doing it manually with the weights. For one thing - I'm just sitting there - and it just doesn't feel right to me. On Wednesday, I hit an all-time goal (I think) for my dumbell chest press...I hit the 50lbs mark. That's 50 lbs in each hand. I managed to squeak out five reps, but I still did it - and paid for it the next day!
So...yeah...I'm happy with the YMCA. Sure, it's no ALIVE, but it helps with my fitness routine, and for the first time in a long time, I'm feeling motivated and happy about my exercise program.
I seem to have plateaued in the weight side of things...and it's starting to drive me crazy. My surgeon doesn't seem too concerned about it, but I am. I'm eating well and exercising like crazy, so eventually the scale will go down - in the right direction. My clothes are fitting a lot looser and I've been getting lots of comments from people saying that they think I have lost some. I've just decided to take it day by day and TRY (the operative word here is try) to not be so hard on myself. I am in no race and there is no hurry to get the rest of my weight off.
So...one day at a time...I will beat this plateau! Stronger both physically and mentally...I will do it.
Cheers and love to all!
K
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Why I do What I do...
I've had lots of comments from people in the last while stating that they are proud of me...that they are "in awe" by the amount of exercise that I do...that "I am an inspiration" to them. While these comments always leave a lasting impression on me, and keep me going, there is a real reason behind what and why I do it.
I started this journey over two years ago because I lost my Mom. My sisters and I found her body in her bed in her home one Saturday night in January 2009. This is a day I will never forget. She lost her battle with alcoholism and rheumatoid arthritis. My Mom battled each day with dignity and courage, but her body just couldn't fight anymore.
I was 360 lbs then. Plain and simple - I don't want to end up like my Mom. I don't want to go back to the 360lb Kristy. She is gone. She served her purpose - whatever that was, but she is now a blip in the past. My Mom is what keeps me going. Her strength within in me is what has been pushing me to work harder. She has been the reason for me not giving up when I've wanted to - on numerous occasions I may add. I've been having a lot of conversations with her lately - I know she can hear me...I can hear her saying "Keep pushing Kris - don't give up" "Get a grip!" "Smarten up!"
Thank you for being an inspriation to me Mom...I love you and I will never give up!
Oh do I miss her...
So...my week...has been a bit of a struggle...Monday and Tuesday were great - my workouts were really great. I am really beginning to love my spin classes tho! On Wednesday my friend Randi and I went to the YMCA and she and I did my new workout! She and I did everything from lat pull downs, to seated rows, to leg presses and bicep curls. She did such a great job and I am so proud of her. I have to admit, I was kind of happy that she was sore the next day...is that wrong?? lol... Thursday I took a long walk through my neighborhood - I am glad the weather is still holding out so that we can still do that. Friday I went back to the YMCA...and kicked my own ass. I got my leg presses up to 160 lbs and my shoulder presses up to 30 lbs. I am still feeling a bit of the effects from it today! I decided to take yesterday and today off from exercise as my body has decided to rebel. When I woke up on Saturday, I could barely get out of bed - I actually thought I had a flu bug, so went back to sleep. By the time mid-day approached, it was very apparent that I was just exhausted from everything - I've been going through some more stress lately and the stress mixed with the hard exercise made my body to just basically give out. I am glad to say I am feeling a bit better tonight.
I hope everyone has a great week! Push yourselves and don't give up!
Cheers!
K
I started this journey over two years ago because I lost my Mom. My sisters and I found her body in her bed in her home one Saturday night in January 2009. This is a day I will never forget. She lost her battle with alcoholism and rheumatoid arthritis. My Mom battled each day with dignity and courage, but her body just couldn't fight anymore.
I was 360 lbs then. Plain and simple - I don't want to end up like my Mom. I don't want to go back to the 360lb Kristy. She is gone. She served her purpose - whatever that was, but she is now a blip in the past. My Mom is what keeps me going. Her strength within in me is what has been pushing me to work harder. She has been the reason for me not giving up when I've wanted to - on numerous occasions I may add. I've been having a lot of conversations with her lately - I know she can hear me...I can hear her saying "Keep pushing Kris - don't give up" "Get a grip!" "Smarten up!"
Thank you for being an inspriation to me Mom...I love you and I will never give up!
Oh do I miss her...
So...my week...has been a bit of a struggle...Monday and Tuesday were great - my workouts were really great. I am really beginning to love my spin classes tho! On Wednesday my friend Randi and I went to the YMCA and she and I did my new workout! She and I did everything from lat pull downs, to seated rows, to leg presses and bicep curls. She did such a great job and I am so proud of her. I have to admit, I was kind of happy that she was sore the next day...is that wrong?? lol... Thursday I took a long walk through my neighborhood - I am glad the weather is still holding out so that we can still do that. Friday I went back to the YMCA...and kicked my own ass. I got my leg presses up to 160 lbs and my shoulder presses up to 30 lbs. I am still feeling a bit of the effects from it today! I decided to take yesterday and today off from exercise as my body has decided to rebel. When I woke up on Saturday, I could barely get out of bed - I actually thought I had a flu bug, so went back to sleep. By the time mid-day approached, it was very apparent that I was just exhausted from everything - I've been going through some more stress lately and the stress mixed with the hard exercise made my body to just basically give out. I am glad to say I am feeling a bit better tonight.
I hope everyone has a great week! Push yourselves and don't give up!
Cheers!
K
Sunday, September 25, 2011
The Easy Way Out...
Alright...I really need to get something off my chest...and since this is my blog, I don't think there's a better place!
Within this past week I have had two people approach me and tell me that they feel I have taken the "easy way out" with regards to my lap-band surgery. While I feel I don't need to justify to anyone the reason why I chose that route, I feel I just need to get it off my chest.
By no means have I taken the easy way out. I had to go through a very tedious process to even be CONSIDERED to be put on the list for the surgery! I had to go to classes bi-weekly and hand in my food and exercise journals. I had to lose a certain percentage of bodyweight - I had to prove that I could do some of it without the surgery.
Let's also not forget the 5-6 times that I trained with Ben and Kendra...they put me through workouts that were so intense that I could hardly walk most days. I also had to do the dreaded three week pre op diet - which in fact, was the hardest thing by far that I had to do. I was on 900 calories a day...three Opifast shakes and all the green veggies I cold eat. Still to this day, I am still unable to eat green beans. And - throughout this pre op diet period, I didn't miss a workout. I even worked out the morning of my surgery at 7am! Yeah - it was a pretty tame workout, but a workout nonethless!
The lap-band by no means, is a quick fix...it's only to be used as a TOOL. It has taught me to eat more slowly and savour each bite. I have had my "stuck" issues and have been freaked out - but have learned from them. I am still able to eat those nasty "slider" foods too - and that's something that I've been trying to train myself not to do.
So there - I'm done...and I won't be discussing it anymore - if you feel the need to say to me that I took the easy way out - please keep it to yourself. You have no idea what I have gone through to get to where I am now.
Alright...on to my week...it was BUSY!! My workouts were awesome...my friend Angela joined me in spin class on Monday - she was a trooper and did so well! Tuesday and Thursday I did Kendra's Bootcamps...Wednesday I tried another class at the YMCA which I actually wasn't really fond of - so I will be doing Wednesday evenings on my own from now on. On Saturday I went to the YMCA for an appt with one of the trainers there to show me how the FITLINXX System works. He sat down with me for 30 mins and discussed what my fitness experiences have been. He helped incorporate some of the exercises I have learned from Ben. It went a lot quicker than I thought as Ben has taught me well. It's going to be awesome to be going back to some of the exercises that Ben and I used to do. In fact, I went to the YMCA this afternoon, and tested it out. I was excited to be doing lat-pull downs and seated rows again! I am also thinking of picking up another class - a cycling one that is held on Sunday mornings...I can't believe it, but I think I am getting addicted to cycling/spin...who knew!
Work has been CRAZY...but yes, the answer is...I am still happy and know that it's been the best decision by far that I have made.
Woohoo! I'm getting my exercise routine back...I am starting to feel more confident and definitely more happy.
Happy week everyone!
Within this past week I have had two people approach me and tell me that they feel I have taken the "easy way out" with regards to my lap-band surgery. While I feel I don't need to justify to anyone the reason why I chose that route, I feel I just need to get it off my chest.
By no means have I taken the easy way out. I had to go through a very tedious process to even be CONSIDERED to be put on the list for the surgery! I had to go to classes bi-weekly and hand in my food and exercise journals. I had to lose a certain percentage of bodyweight - I had to prove that I could do some of it without the surgery.
Let's also not forget the 5-6 times that I trained with Ben and Kendra...they put me through workouts that were so intense that I could hardly walk most days. I also had to do the dreaded three week pre op diet - which in fact, was the hardest thing by far that I had to do. I was on 900 calories a day...three Opifast shakes and all the green veggies I cold eat. Still to this day, I am still unable to eat green beans. And - throughout this pre op diet period, I didn't miss a workout. I even worked out the morning of my surgery at 7am! Yeah - it was a pretty tame workout, but a workout nonethless!
The lap-band by no means, is a quick fix...it's only to be used as a TOOL. It has taught me to eat more slowly and savour each bite. I have had my "stuck" issues and have been freaked out - but have learned from them. I am still able to eat those nasty "slider" foods too - and that's something that I've been trying to train myself not to do.
So there - I'm done...and I won't be discussing it anymore - if you feel the need to say to me that I took the easy way out - please keep it to yourself. You have no idea what I have gone through to get to where I am now.
Alright...on to my week...it was BUSY!! My workouts were awesome...my friend Angela joined me in spin class on Monday - she was a trooper and did so well! Tuesday and Thursday I did Kendra's Bootcamps...Wednesday I tried another class at the YMCA which I actually wasn't really fond of - so I will be doing Wednesday evenings on my own from now on. On Saturday I went to the YMCA for an appt with one of the trainers there to show me how the FITLINXX System works. He sat down with me for 30 mins and discussed what my fitness experiences have been. He helped incorporate some of the exercises I have learned from Ben. It went a lot quicker than I thought as Ben has taught me well. It's going to be awesome to be going back to some of the exercises that Ben and I used to do. In fact, I went to the YMCA this afternoon, and tested it out. I was excited to be doing lat-pull downs and seated rows again! I am also thinking of picking up another class - a cycling one that is held on Sunday mornings...I can't believe it, but I think I am getting addicted to cycling/spin...who knew!
Work has been CRAZY...but yes, the answer is...I am still happy and know that it's been the best decision by far that I have made.
Woohoo! I'm getting my exercise routine back...I am starting to feel more confident and definitely more happy.
Happy week everyone!
Sunday, September 18, 2011
My week in a nutshell
I can't believe September is more than half over! In just a few weeks, we will be digging out the parkas, mitts and boots...where did the summer go? I can't believe how quickly it has flown by.
I checked out my first spin class ever on Monday. The class itself is called Turn and Burn. About 70 percent of the class is on the bike and the other percent is spent doing strength/resistance exercises. I was worried that the biking would be hard on my knees...boy was I wrong! It was a great overall workout - great cardio! I enjoyed the strength training exercises too - even if planks were involved! lol...The instructor was awesome too - she went around to each participant and made sure they had their bike set up properly - this made me feel secure knowing that she knew what she was doing. She was also really enthusiastic and motivating...it was also great that my buddy Lorraine joined me - I can't wait until my next class - tomorrow!
My Tuesday/Thursday bootcamps with Kendra were the usual crazy brutalness - Tuesday we did TRX and Thursday we did kickboxing with heavy weights. It was the last two classes until the next round that starts this Tuesday - so she kicked it up a notch.
On Wednesday, I went to my Lap-Band Support Group Meeting. We spent most of the class talking to each other about our experiences - it was neat to see all of the support we show for each other. Wendy, one of the dietitians, brought a few receipes that were on the Lap-Band Connect Website - she actually cooked them and brought them in. I think I enjoyed the Pumpkin, almond oatmeal the best! I was also happy to see that the Health Region is putting more funding into the Calgary Weight Management Program. Not only are they funding 50 surgeries for this upcoming year instead of 25, they are also in the planning stage of looking for an exercise specialist or personal trainer for the program. I think that would be awesome and a great resource!
Friday, I was supposed to have my fifth fill. After waiting for almost three hours, it was decided that there was a clerical/scheduling/communication glitch and the surgeon was in fact, not coming. I was pretty annoyed to say the least, as I had taken time off of work to go there. They are supposed to be rebooking me for this upcoming week. I think I am finally getting close to my "sweet spot" - which would be great as the weight is not coming off as quickly as I woud like. Last month, for instance, I only lost two pounds...I was a bit upset and frustrated when I was talking to the dietitian about it. She told me that at least it wasn't going up and was going in the right direction - that I am doing what I am advised to do that that's all I can do. Then she told me I need to be more gentle with myself. Uhhh...she obviously doesn't know who she is talking to lol...I can't believe the amount of people in the last 6-8 months that have told me that - including my surgeon. I'm not expecting rapid weight loss - in fact, I don't want that at all. But two pounds in a month??? Give me a break!!
Friday evening I headed to the YMCA...all by myself! I started out on the eliptical and rocked it. I was surprised how great on my knees it was. I then proceeded to do three rounds on the strength training machines. I did it by myself and I am proud. I have come a heck of a long way since the beginning of this year. I am no longer nervous about doing it on my own - I can't wait to get hooked up with the FitLinxx System...then I will REALLY rock it!
Saturday I went to my early kickboxing class and loved it. After that, I went and got my knees x-rayed. They have been giving me a lot of problems lately. They are now scraping - bone on bone. I see my doctor in three weeks to go over the results and figure out what the next step is. I just want some progress made - I want to be able to run up and down the stairs and not be in pain. Time will tell...
Saturday evening, my friend Shane and I went to the Stamps game. It was great to people-watch and have a great time and relax...unfortunately tho, they lost - they can't seem to win at home and nobody seems to be able to figure it out.
This week I am looking forward to pushing myself more - I am capable of doing anything I set my mind to. I can do it and I AM doing it.
Have a great week everyone!
I checked out my first spin class ever on Monday. The class itself is called Turn and Burn. About 70 percent of the class is on the bike and the other percent is spent doing strength/resistance exercises. I was worried that the biking would be hard on my knees...boy was I wrong! It was a great overall workout - great cardio! I enjoyed the strength training exercises too - even if planks were involved! lol...The instructor was awesome too - she went around to each participant and made sure they had their bike set up properly - this made me feel secure knowing that she knew what she was doing. She was also really enthusiastic and motivating...it was also great that my buddy Lorraine joined me - I can't wait until my next class - tomorrow!
My Tuesday/Thursday bootcamps with Kendra were the usual crazy brutalness - Tuesday we did TRX and Thursday we did kickboxing with heavy weights. It was the last two classes until the next round that starts this Tuesday - so she kicked it up a notch.
On Wednesday, I went to my Lap-Band Support Group Meeting. We spent most of the class talking to each other about our experiences - it was neat to see all of the support we show for each other. Wendy, one of the dietitians, brought a few receipes that were on the Lap-Band Connect Website - she actually cooked them and brought them in. I think I enjoyed the Pumpkin, almond oatmeal the best! I was also happy to see that the Health Region is putting more funding into the Calgary Weight Management Program. Not only are they funding 50 surgeries for this upcoming year instead of 25, they are also in the planning stage of looking for an exercise specialist or personal trainer for the program. I think that would be awesome and a great resource!
Friday, I was supposed to have my fifth fill. After waiting for almost three hours, it was decided that there was a clerical/scheduling/communication glitch and the surgeon was in fact, not coming. I was pretty annoyed to say the least, as I had taken time off of work to go there. They are supposed to be rebooking me for this upcoming week. I think I am finally getting close to my "sweet spot" - which would be great as the weight is not coming off as quickly as I woud like. Last month, for instance, I only lost two pounds...I was a bit upset and frustrated when I was talking to the dietitian about it. She told me that at least it wasn't going up and was going in the right direction - that I am doing what I am advised to do that that's all I can do. Then she told me I need to be more gentle with myself. Uhhh...she obviously doesn't know who she is talking to lol...I can't believe the amount of people in the last 6-8 months that have told me that - including my surgeon. I'm not expecting rapid weight loss - in fact, I don't want that at all. But two pounds in a month??? Give me a break!!
Friday evening I headed to the YMCA...all by myself! I started out on the eliptical and rocked it. I was surprised how great on my knees it was. I then proceeded to do three rounds on the strength training machines. I did it by myself and I am proud. I have come a heck of a long way since the beginning of this year. I am no longer nervous about doing it on my own - I can't wait to get hooked up with the FitLinxx System...then I will REALLY rock it!
Saturday I went to my early kickboxing class and loved it. After that, I went and got my knees x-rayed. They have been giving me a lot of problems lately. They are now scraping - bone on bone. I see my doctor in three weeks to go over the results and figure out what the next step is. I just want some progress made - I want to be able to run up and down the stairs and not be in pain. Time will tell...
Saturday evening, my friend Shane and I went to the Stamps game. It was great to people-watch and have a great time and relax...unfortunately tho, they lost - they can't seem to win at home and nobody seems to be able to figure it out.
This week I am looking forward to pushing myself more - I am capable of doing anything I set my mind to. I can do it and I AM doing it.
Have a great week everyone!
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Moving Forward!
Wow...what a week...and I made it!
I'm also happy to say I've been feeling more like my "old" self again, and when I mean "old" I don't mean my age. I am starting to feel like I am in more control of my emotions and actions and more in control of my life. For the past few months, I really haven't been putting forth as much effort towards myself as I would have wanted. I let my emotions get to me. I lost sight of why I am really doing this journey in the first place. Yes, I want to be healthy...yes I want to be happy...but most of all, I want to be in control. I want to be able to decline the piece of cake at work and be okay with it. I want to be strong and capable of anything I set my mind to. I know I have all those attributes I just listed - I'm just having "issues" putting them into play.
Monday I tried out a new bootcamp. My friend Jacquie found a deal off of Living Social - 20 fitness classes for 20 bucks. Jacquie was gracious enough and gave me her other passes that she had. The Bootcamp is called FitBody. The look on my face must have been priceless when I walked into the place and was watching the current class...the first thing I saw they were doing were bearcrawls - I immediately started panicking a little inside. I had done bearcrawls with Ben at Alive - and hated them. We met the instructor Chris and he told us what the class would consist of - then Jacquie blurted out that I wanted to do bearcrawls! lol...so yeah you guessed it...we did bearcrawls, and tractor pulls and side planks, and shoulder presses, just to name a few...the class kind of reminded me of Damir's bootcamp classes...lots of body weight drills and you feel like you just walked out of a torture chamber...lol The thing I loved most about the class, was that I was able to do just about everything I was asked to do and I did them well. I killed it on the bearcrawls too - and yes...I actually really liked them!
I woked up on Tuesday with pain in my lats like I have NEVER had before...and I was excited. I always love it when my muscles hurt as I know I have worked hard. I did Kendra's bootcamp class that evening and we did a tonne of TRX drills...my lats have never had it so good! lol
Wednesday I went and saw my doctor about my knees. He gave me a requisition for another x-ray as he thinks the osteo has made more degeneration in my knees since my last x-ray a year ago. Depending on what the x-rays show, the next step would be cortisone injections. I think I would rather have Synvisc injections, but I will see what happens. He also wants to get an MRI done too. That will be up to a year wait to get that done...should be fun!
Thursday I did Kendra's class again...only three of us showed up, so we were at her mercy...we did tons of pilates drills, using our small core muscles and such. We also did lots of shoulder work...must be why my shoulders are still sore three days later! Good on ya Kendra!
Yesterday, Damir's Saturday morning kickboxing class started up again. I was excited as my Saturdays used to be dedicated to classes of some sort...He put me with a great partner (Jessica) and it was not only a great workout, but I laughed and had fun...it's been such a long time since I've had fun like that in a Saturday class...I can't wait for next Saturday!
And today...I am very happy to say...I finally joined the Shawnessy YMCA!! Brian and I went together - I started off on the bike - did 20 mins on that, and then we proceeded to work out together. I also got myself acquainted with some of the weight machines and Brian helped me out to get me to feel more comfortable using them. I've been so used to having Ben guide me and show me how to do everything, and for the first time on my own today, I think I did pretty damn good! I am also really looking forward to doing their classes too! Who wouldn't love to walk or run on a treadmill and watch a movie through their I-pod or whatnot? lol...my experience there was very positive and I'm really looking forward to going back and getting back on track. The front desk girls name was Samantha too! I cracked a grin when she told me what her name was. That was awesome.
So there's my week in a nutshell...I'm still loving my new job and am damn good at it. I am starting to really love my new routine and I know that in only a short time, the weight will start to melt off again.
I'm excited...bring it on!
I'm also happy to say I've been feeling more like my "old" self again, and when I mean "old" I don't mean my age. I am starting to feel like I am in more control of my emotions and actions and more in control of my life. For the past few months, I really haven't been putting forth as much effort towards myself as I would have wanted. I let my emotions get to me. I lost sight of why I am really doing this journey in the first place. Yes, I want to be healthy...yes I want to be happy...but most of all, I want to be in control. I want to be able to decline the piece of cake at work and be okay with it. I want to be strong and capable of anything I set my mind to. I know I have all those attributes I just listed - I'm just having "issues" putting them into play.
Monday I tried out a new bootcamp. My friend Jacquie found a deal off of Living Social - 20 fitness classes for 20 bucks. Jacquie was gracious enough and gave me her other passes that she had. The Bootcamp is called FitBody. The look on my face must have been priceless when I walked into the place and was watching the current class...the first thing I saw they were doing were bearcrawls - I immediately started panicking a little inside. I had done bearcrawls with Ben at Alive - and hated them. We met the instructor Chris and he told us what the class would consist of - then Jacquie blurted out that I wanted to do bearcrawls! lol...so yeah you guessed it...we did bearcrawls, and tractor pulls and side planks, and shoulder presses, just to name a few...the class kind of reminded me of Damir's bootcamp classes...lots of body weight drills and you feel like you just walked out of a torture chamber...lol The thing I loved most about the class, was that I was able to do just about everything I was asked to do and I did them well. I killed it on the bearcrawls too - and yes...I actually really liked them!
I woked up on Tuesday with pain in my lats like I have NEVER had before...and I was excited. I always love it when my muscles hurt as I know I have worked hard. I did Kendra's bootcamp class that evening and we did a tonne of TRX drills...my lats have never had it so good! lol
Wednesday I went and saw my doctor about my knees. He gave me a requisition for another x-ray as he thinks the osteo has made more degeneration in my knees since my last x-ray a year ago. Depending on what the x-rays show, the next step would be cortisone injections. I think I would rather have Synvisc injections, but I will see what happens. He also wants to get an MRI done too. That will be up to a year wait to get that done...should be fun!
Thursday I did Kendra's class again...only three of us showed up, so we were at her mercy...we did tons of pilates drills, using our small core muscles and such. We also did lots of shoulder work...must be why my shoulders are still sore three days later! Good on ya Kendra!
Yesterday, Damir's Saturday morning kickboxing class started up again. I was excited as my Saturdays used to be dedicated to classes of some sort...He put me with a great partner (Jessica) and it was not only a great workout, but I laughed and had fun...it's been such a long time since I've had fun like that in a Saturday class...I can't wait for next Saturday!
And today...I am very happy to say...I finally joined the Shawnessy YMCA!! Brian and I went together - I started off on the bike - did 20 mins on that, and then we proceeded to work out together. I also got myself acquainted with some of the weight machines and Brian helped me out to get me to feel more comfortable using them. I've been so used to having Ben guide me and show me how to do everything, and for the first time on my own today, I think I did pretty damn good! I am also really looking forward to doing their classes too! Who wouldn't love to walk or run on a treadmill and watch a movie through their I-pod or whatnot? lol...my experience there was very positive and I'm really looking forward to going back and getting back on track. The front desk girls name was Samantha too! I cracked a grin when she told me what her name was. That was awesome.
So there's my week in a nutshell...I'm still loving my new job and am damn good at it. I am starting to really love my new routine and I know that in only a short time, the weight will start to melt off again.
I'm excited...bring it on!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
I'm a Big Girl Now...
So...ya...I did it. I finally did what I've been talking non-stop for for like the last two weeks at least. On Wednesday evening, I finally went to the YMCA and did a class...all by myself.
Out of everything that I have set out to accomplish, this is by far pretty close to the top. I have been spending a lot of time lately, letting my anxiety control me. On Wednesday, I guess I decided I wanted a break from it. I wanted to accomplish something...something big...and for me - I did. It was weird just coming straight home from work - I almost always bring my gym bag with me to work and go directly to the gym from there. I walked through the door, and headed straight to the couch. Brian had been home sick from work - which is probably a good thing now that I think about it. So, I sat there and said "You know - I don't have to go if I don't want to. I COULD just stay home."
Stay home?! And do what?? Sit on the couch and know that once again, my anxiety got the best of me? NO...I wanted to do this...I wanted to prove to myself that I COULD do it on my own.
So I grabbed a snack and headed out the door. While walking to the train station I kept thinking "You can go back Kristy, it's not too late!" But this other voice in my head just kept telling me to keep walking...I also had a couple of friends close by on my Blackberry, and they kept at me. Then when I got to the Y, I stood outside for about 10 minutes - trying to talk myself out of it, when Brian texted me - asking me how I was....it was like he knew what I was doing...lol. So - I went in and did the class...and you know what?? I really enjoyed myself and wondered why I was freaking out in the first place.
I think we all have our "Comfort Zone" that we don't like to break out of from time to time. This time however, it was imparative that I do so. This was one of the reasons why I got so big in the first place. I relied WAY too much on other people and not on myself to get myself well and to become healthy and strong. I am VERY proud of myself and am looking forward to this week's class!
I had another NSV this week. I can now cross my legs! I haven't been able to do that since I was a teenager. I probably won't be doing it much tho - not good for your circulation, but it felt good knowing that I can.
I am also looking forward to this week. I start my new position as a Laboratory Support Clerk back at the DSC. I'm looking forward to seeing everybody that I used to work with, and I'm looking forward to getting back to some sort of a routine.
My goals for this week:
1. Do Wednesday's class again
2. Sleep better
3. Cut out carbs in the evening
Out of everything that I have set out to accomplish, this is by far pretty close to the top. I have been spending a lot of time lately, letting my anxiety control me. On Wednesday, I guess I decided I wanted a break from it. I wanted to accomplish something...something big...and for me - I did. It was weird just coming straight home from work - I almost always bring my gym bag with me to work and go directly to the gym from there. I walked through the door, and headed straight to the couch. Brian had been home sick from work - which is probably a good thing now that I think about it. So, I sat there and said "You know - I don't have to go if I don't want to. I COULD just stay home."
Stay home?! And do what?? Sit on the couch and know that once again, my anxiety got the best of me? NO...I wanted to do this...I wanted to prove to myself that I COULD do it on my own.
So I grabbed a snack and headed out the door. While walking to the train station I kept thinking "You can go back Kristy, it's not too late!" But this other voice in my head just kept telling me to keep walking...I also had a couple of friends close by on my Blackberry, and they kept at me. Then when I got to the Y, I stood outside for about 10 minutes - trying to talk myself out of it, when Brian texted me - asking me how I was....it was like he knew what I was doing...lol. So - I went in and did the class...and you know what?? I really enjoyed myself and wondered why I was freaking out in the first place.
I think we all have our "Comfort Zone" that we don't like to break out of from time to time. This time however, it was imparative that I do so. This was one of the reasons why I got so big in the first place. I relied WAY too much on other people and not on myself to get myself well and to become healthy and strong. I am VERY proud of myself and am looking forward to this week's class!
I had another NSV this week. I can now cross my legs! I haven't been able to do that since I was a teenager. I probably won't be doing it much tho - not good for your circulation, but it felt good knowing that I can.
I am also looking forward to this week. I start my new position as a Laboratory Support Clerk back at the DSC. I'm looking forward to seeing everybody that I used to work with, and I'm looking forward to getting back to some sort of a routine.
My goals for this week:
1. Do Wednesday's class again
2. Sleep better
3. Cut out carbs in the evening
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Change is a Comin!
It's been a busy week - full of ups and downs...but it's been a good week. On Monday, I had my last training session with Ben. We had a great session outside - and it was one of my most favorite sessions too...we did a variety of drills from medicine ball throws, to small runs up and down a hill, to some ab work. While I do feel sad about not training with him anymore, I know that I CAN do this on my own - he has given me all the tools necessary for me to move forward and do it on my own - and that is exciting for me. He has been such a positive impact on my life and I'm not even close to the person I was two years ago - both physically and mentally. Thank you Ben!
I have decided to join the Y.M.C.A. in Shawnessy. I went there with Ben last Friday and he showed me around - I think it's a place where I will feel comfortable - and there are classes that are included in my membership. I think it will be a place where I can start to make those "connections" again. They also have this self-tracking system called FitLinxx that I can use to track my progress - it's like having my own little personal trainer in a way. I can access it through my computer and see my progress too. I will be buying my membership August 1st, and am looking forward to it!
I had a great time in bootcamp this week too. I had a bit of a NSV (Non-Scale victory) on Thursday. Kendra had a bunch of stations set up for the circuit and one of the stations was a jump rope one. I thought to myself - there is no way I can skip - my knees won't be able to handle it...ANY kind of jumping would be out of the question. So, at the start, I just modified it so I wasn't using the jump-rope, and was mimicking the movement of it all. The second time we did it, I decided to just try it - so I grabbed the rope, and just started skipping....ONE-TWO-THREE-FOUR - and I just kept going - until I hit 24 reps and that's when my feet wouldn't go anymore. I was shocked...I hadn't skipped rope since I was in elementary school! I still have the look on Kendra's face in my head. She was helping somone with another exercise and when she turned around and realized it was ME that was jumping rope, she was excited...while my knees have been paying for it the past couple of days, I am very proud of myself that I did it. My body is slowly starting to do things I never thought I could do - and that makes me happy...
I had my third fill for my lap-band on Friday. I saw a different surgeon and we both agreed that I needed a larger fill than normal. I have been able to eat pretty much whatever I want - including bread - which is not a good thing as bread is my kryptonite...he gave me a full cc in my band and I am now up to 3.8 cc's. I have felt the restriction the past couple of days and I am hoping that this will kick start my weight loss once again.
I also found out on Friday, that I will officially be starting my new job back at the DSC on August 2nd. I am looking forward to working with some great people again, and am looking forward to the challenge. It is going to be such a positive experience for me and I am excited to start!
I want to feel more in control - in every aspect of my life. There is a lot of change coming my way - and I am a bit scared and nervous...but I know if I just push myself outside my comfort zone, and work hard to get where I want to be, I know I can do it. While I know I don't have to like change, it is inevitable - and how I deal with it is what matters.
Have a great week everyone!
I have decided to join the Y.M.C.A. in Shawnessy. I went there with Ben last Friday and he showed me around - I think it's a place where I will feel comfortable - and there are classes that are included in my membership. I think it will be a place where I can start to make those "connections" again. They also have this self-tracking system called FitLinxx that I can use to track my progress - it's like having my own little personal trainer in a way. I can access it through my computer and see my progress too. I will be buying my membership August 1st, and am looking forward to it!
I had a great time in bootcamp this week too. I had a bit of a NSV (Non-Scale victory) on Thursday. Kendra had a bunch of stations set up for the circuit and one of the stations was a jump rope one. I thought to myself - there is no way I can skip - my knees won't be able to handle it...ANY kind of jumping would be out of the question. So, at the start, I just modified it so I wasn't using the jump-rope, and was mimicking the movement of it all. The second time we did it, I decided to just try it - so I grabbed the rope, and just started skipping....ONE-TWO-THREE-FOUR - and I just kept going - until I hit 24 reps and that's when my feet wouldn't go anymore. I was shocked...I hadn't skipped rope since I was in elementary school! I still have the look on Kendra's face in my head. She was helping somone with another exercise and when she turned around and realized it was ME that was jumping rope, she was excited...while my knees have been paying for it the past couple of days, I am very proud of myself that I did it. My body is slowly starting to do things I never thought I could do - and that makes me happy...
I had my third fill for my lap-band on Friday. I saw a different surgeon and we both agreed that I needed a larger fill than normal. I have been able to eat pretty much whatever I want - including bread - which is not a good thing as bread is my kryptonite...he gave me a full cc in my band and I am now up to 3.8 cc's. I have felt the restriction the past couple of days and I am hoping that this will kick start my weight loss once again.
I also found out on Friday, that I will officially be starting my new job back at the DSC on August 2nd. I am looking forward to working with some great people again, and am looking forward to the challenge. It is going to be such a positive experience for me and I am excited to start!
I want to feel more in control - in every aspect of my life. There is a lot of change coming my way - and I am a bit scared and nervous...but I know if I just push myself outside my comfort zone, and work hard to get where I want to be, I know I can do it. While I know I don't have to like change, it is inevitable - and how I deal with it is what matters.
Have a great week everyone!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Gym Shopping
So this week was my vacation - or "stay"cation as it's called. We both had the week off and just stayed around the house and relaxed...A LOT! This is something that I rarely do - and it was nice to do just that.
Thursday, my sister Kathy graciously offered to take me out to look at some new gyms...Brian also came along for morale support Now for those of you that aren't familiar with gym shopping - I have one word to describe it: Amusing. We went to three gyms - I won't name them on here as I feel that's not a very good thing to put on here, but if you would like to know the names, just message me and I will be more than happy to tell you. For now, I will call them Gym 1, Gym 2 and Gym 3.
Gym #1 had a great "small" gym atmosphere...and I warmed up to the owner right away. He explained everything in detail to me and it felt like he actually cared. There were also no contracts to sign, and the fees were reasonable. He even gave me a free pass to try it out myself. The downside? The classes they have are not included in the membership fees and would be just too expensive for me in the long run. This gym is still a possibility for me tho.
Gym #2 was okay. The membership price was good for everything that I would be getting. Classes are included...the downside? It was dirty...and not just dirty - it was filthy. I also felt like just another number - not Kristy. It's important to me to belong to a gym where the owner knows my name.
Gym # 3 was a downright disappointment. I can't think of anything positive to say about it actually. Again, it was filthy, and the guy that was showing us around, just walked away from us and went back to the front desk. He didn't care about us so we left. They were also the most expensive out of the three.
Also, on Friday Ben went with me to the Shawnessy YMCA and we checked it out. I was impressed. They have a lot of machines that I am not entirely used to using, but with time, I would become a pro. They also have classes that are included in their membership. This is another option for me.
When I started looking at these gyms on Thursday, I kept comparing them to ALIVE. I know there will never be another gym quite like ALIVE ever again - the friendships and the togetherness type feel that was formed there are bar none the best. But- what I can do is find that again...or something LIKE it. I might find it at gym #1 or the YMCA...who knows...
If anyone out there has had a positive experience with their gym and would like to share that with me, that would be awesome. I look forward to hearing from you all!
Wish me luck!
K
Thursday, my sister Kathy graciously offered to take me out to look at some new gyms...Brian also came along for morale support Now for those of you that aren't familiar with gym shopping - I have one word to describe it: Amusing. We went to three gyms - I won't name them on here as I feel that's not a very good thing to put on here, but if you would like to know the names, just message me and I will be more than happy to tell you. For now, I will call them Gym 1, Gym 2 and Gym 3.
Gym #1 had a great "small" gym atmosphere...and I warmed up to the owner right away. He explained everything in detail to me and it felt like he actually cared. There were also no contracts to sign, and the fees were reasonable. He even gave me a free pass to try it out myself. The downside? The classes they have are not included in the membership fees and would be just too expensive for me in the long run. This gym is still a possibility for me tho.
Gym #2 was okay. The membership price was good for everything that I would be getting. Classes are included...the downside? It was dirty...and not just dirty - it was filthy. I also felt like just another number - not Kristy. It's important to me to belong to a gym where the owner knows my name.
Gym # 3 was a downright disappointment. I can't think of anything positive to say about it actually. Again, it was filthy, and the guy that was showing us around, just walked away from us and went back to the front desk. He didn't care about us so we left. They were also the most expensive out of the three.
Also, on Friday Ben went with me to the Shawnessy YMCA and we checked it out. I was impressed. They have a lot of machines that I am not entirely used to using, but with time, I would become a pro. They also have classes that are included in their membership. This is another option for me.
When I started looking at these gyms on Thursday, I kept comparing them to ALIVE. I know there will never be another gym quite like ALIVE ever again - the friendships and the togetherness type feel that was formed there are bar none the best. But- what I can do is find that again...or something LIKE it. I might find it at gym #1 or the YMCA...who knows...
If anyone out there has had a positive experience with their gym and would like to share that with me, that would be awesome. I look forward to hearing from you all!
Wish me luck!
K
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