Time for a Change Up??

The last couple of weeks have been a little trying emotionally for me.  Last weekend, I actually felt like quitting...I felt like throwing in the towel and saying "screw it."  My weight has stayed the same (give or take two pounds) for almost two months now. 

I'm tired...

I'm frustrated...

So I thought I would take this past week and just try and relax about my weight loss (or lack of it) and try not to even think about it.  I think I made it to Tuesday...lol  I talked with a few people from work and the gym and got some insight. 

First off...quitting is NOT an option for me.  I have come way to far to quit.  I have to change my mindset and keep focused. 

Secondly...I need to start tracking EVERYTHING.  I track what I eat and for the most part, how much.  What I have not been tracking is the amount of carbs that I've been ingesting.  I need to start counting those and keeping better track. 

Thirdly...Water...or lack of it.  Starting tomorrow - I am going to track my water intake and TRY and drink more (notice I said try).  I will make sure I am not using being too busy at work as an excuse as to why I'm not getting my water intake.

Again - I must get more sleep.  5-6 hrs a night is just not cutting it.  I know that proper sleep hygiene is VITAL to weight loss.  I've had quite a bit of stress to deal with lately - maybe it's time I make another trip to talk to Veronica my therapist.  I am considering taking up meditation...I've been going to as many yoga classes as I can and that seems to be helping.  I need to learn to BREATHE...and relax!

I am also seriously considering trying to cut gluten out of my diet.  Although I LOVE my grains (i.e. cereal and oatmeal) this is something that I would like to try.  I have a couple of friends that have celiac disease, and although they have told me that in the beginning, it was hard for them to cut out the gluten or wheat in their diet, they have definitely felt better and have had more energy.  This might be one of the things I need to do in order to kick start my weight loss again.

I am also going to change up my exericse routine.  I am going to add more cardio and cut out my cross fit classes. 

Whatever changes I need to make, I need to just do it.  After all, they say change is good right? 

Cheers to a better week ahead!

K

Plugging Away...

Well it's been a bit of a hectic/crazy week...there is no other way to describe it...but I've managed to push through and make the most of it.  I just decided to take each day as it came, and then just broke each day down until I was basically taking it hour by hour...I have been tending to look way to far into the future, and then feeling anxiety - so this was my solution...


I fell off the food wagon slightly this week - by that, I don't mean I was gorging out on pastries, chip and the like, but I wasn't eating at regular times.  I would eat breakfast, and then skip my morning snack, and by the time 1130am rolled around for lunch, I was ravenous.  So there I was - gulping down  quickly eating my chicken and salad, and of course - getting stuck.  When I mean get stuck, I mean - not chewing my food hardly at all and swallowing and hoping for the best...for the most part, I think I just wasn't thinking - and just eating as I was so freakin hungry, all I wanted was food.  I did it at supper too...freak that I am...lol...  Some of my choices were also not the best, but they weren't horrible - like fat free chocolate pudding...I know I could have definitely made a better choice than that - like having a banana, or another type of fruit...


This is all part of the learning process for me - experimenting with different foods and figuring out what my band will and will not like...I tested out a couple of Triscuits - and they seemed to go down well - although after about my third one, it too started to get caught.  Too dry I think.


I also don't think my band is tight enough...when I saw Dr. Church last, he seemed to think I was doing really well and didn't need much of a fill.  I find I am hungry a lot of the time and am even hungry after an hour of eating.  I see Dr. Mitchell (Dr. Church's colleague) in the middle of July and will be getting another fill then.


My exercise has been great this week...I trained with Ben - which is always good - and did Kendra's classes...we did her "Tower of Power" on Thursday - for those of you that don't know what that is, it's a series of drop sets - you start at 30 reps on light weight and then go to quite heavy at 10 reps - we managed to do 100 reps each of squats, bent over rows, and chest presses...I got through them all without stopping - I always feel great about myself and feel accomplished after doing that class.


I have some huge changes coming up in the next couple of months - both professionally and personally.  I am just going to take it day by day and just plug away and get it done.  And as I told Veronica (my therapist) I am going to finish what I started.  I am resilient and strong and capable of doing anything that I set my mind to.  I can do this...


I AM WORTH IT!