com·mit·ment [kuh-mit-muhnt]
–noun
1. the act of committing.
2. the state of being committed.
3. the act of committing, pledging, or engaging oneself.
What exactly is commitment?? When I read through these three definitions, I stop at number 2 and giggle...number one seems pretty close to the way I see it, but number three is where I would truly like to be. I know that in order for my weight loss journey to be successful, I must commit to myself a whole lot more. Back in January when I started my pre op diet I was hugely commited to myself...in the past week, not so much. I found myself making some wrong food choices, and my exercise was WAY down. This was the first time in almost two years that I actually didn't feel like working out. I started off the week with an awesome hot yoga class - for those of you that have never tried hot yoga before, I would definitely encourage you to try it. I must warn everyone tho - you will sweat like you have never sweat before...it didn't just drip out of me...it POURED and ROLLED out of me...lol At first, I was really nervous - worried I wouldn't be able to stay in the room for more than 5 minutes...but once the class started, I was commited. It ended up being their hardest class too - but my friend Randi and I did it! It was also great for my joints - I was shocked by the amount that I could do - I could move the way I wanted without limits and pain. It was just a great experience for me overall - something I will definitely try again. I did Kendra's bootcamps also, but the rest of the time I just didn't do anything...it felt weird and I didn't like it.
This was the first week ever that I felt as though I was failing at this...by saying this, I mean this whole journey that I have been working hard on. I feel lost...and I feel alone. I know that nobody can lose this weight for me and I know that nobody else can make me happy but me. Every week lately seems like a broken record...same things going through my head...then me telling myself that I must make that commitment to myself and start doing this for me. I am afraid at failing and letting myself down...undoing all of my hard work. I just keep telling myself if I could just get a hold on my "head stuff" that I'm golden...I've got this...
Starting right now - I am going to make a commitment to myself. I will no longer make shitty food choices...I will figure out what I need to do to get in some form of activity every day. Even if it is just going out for a walk in the evening...I will commit to stop the negative self talk and worrying about failing all the time. Everyone has a "blip" in their journey and I am finally figuring out that this is my "blip."
What are you doing to stay commited to yourself? Are you commited enough to want to succeed? How badly do you want this? Are you willing to do anything to reach your goals? These are all the questions I am asking myself once again...I DO want this...I AM commited and I am willing to do whatever it takes to get my weight loss on the move again.
And lastly..."Don't think about it...DO it." Something that my trainer Ben has told me over and over and over...
So this week...I'm gonna DO it!
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Sunday, June 26, 2011
Sunday, May 8, 2011
"Stop Being Such a Whimp!"
Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms out there! And Happy Mother's Day to my Mom in heaven... To tell you the honest truth, I was kind of dreading today...but I feel pretty good this morning...I think it's mostly in part that I'm keeping myself busy - going to a good friend's baseball game this afternoon, and then out for supper this evening with them. Good friends are hard to find - as I have discovered this week - and the ones that treat you well and love you know matter what life throws at you are the ones you want to stick with. Life is too short to deal with bullshit - plain and simple...
I've been busy this week...on Monday, my friend Jessica and I went walking in Fish Creek - and I really enjoyed it. We did pretty much the same route as Holly and I had done the week before, but this was a little shorter...at the end of our walk, I looked down at my Nike+ application and it said we had walked 6 km! I felt great about that - couldn't have done that two years ago for sure...I was lucky if I could walk 1 km without sweating like a pig!
Tuesday I did Kendra's Bootcamp Class...I love her classes...she always pushes me to my limits - and then pushes me more...I always leave her classes soaked in sweat and satisfied that I've worked hard. We did quite a bit of cardio which I loved (I still laugh whenever I type or say that as I have always hated cardio) and it was great to see a few of the ladies I used to go to Alive with. :-)
Wednesday, Jessica and I did another walk in Fish Creek...this walk was a little bit shorter as my foot and knee were bothering me - but we still managed to walk almost 5km! I'm so glad the weather Gods have been on my side this week - haven't had to cancel any of my walks due to rain which is great!
Thursday I did another one of Kendra's classes...one word to describe it was brutal...but in a good way! There was lots of bosu/TRX/strength training - and at one point, probably half way through the class, I thought I was either going to pass out or throw up...but I just kept taking deep breaths and kept going...at one point she had us doing standing shoulder presses - with a fairly heavy weight (I thought it was 25 lbs, but now that I think about it I think it was 20 lbs) and because it was near the end of the class, I found it very difficult to get the weight even half way up over my head! I started to whine (like I tend to do) and Kendra came up to me and said "Stop being such a whimp!" and it made me want to work harder. I pumped off fifteen of them and then almost collapsed...lol...she also had us doing one of the exercises I dread the most - Spiderman planks on the bosu - two weeks ago I could hardly do two of them...I ended up doing FIFTEEN of them! I'm telling you - if you want to find an exercise that makes you sweat so hard, that it gets in your eyes and everywhere else for that matter, do these...I felt great after I did them...my next goal for those will be to do them from my toes... Kendra loves to push me and show me what I am capable of - I AM STRONG...it's just sometimes I need that extra kick in the ass to remind me of that. It's what both she and Ben have been trying to instill in me the past couple of years - I get it...finally.
Friday I took the day off of exercise and went out with some buddies from work that I haven't seen in a long time. It was really nice to just relax and have fun and have a drink - yes I only had one, but it felt great just to kick back and laugh and visit...
And as a result of this busy yet fun and challenging week both physically and mentally, I am down 2.4 lbs!! I have been sitting around the same 2-3 lbs for the past three weeks and it's been driving me bonkers! I am now 290.5 lbs - and I am hoping to be in the 280's by next Sunday!
Wish me luck!
I've been busy this week...on Monday, my friend Jessica and I went walking in Fish Creek - and I really enjoyed it. We did pretty much the same route as Holly and I had done the week before, but this was a little shorter...at the end of our walk, I looked down at my Nike+ application and it said we had walked 6 km! I felt great about that - couldn't have done that two years ago for sure...I was lucky if I could walk 1 km without sweating like a pig!
Tuesday I did Kendra's Bootcamp Class...I love her classes...she always pushes me to my limits - and then pushes me more...I always leave her classes soaked in sweat and satisfied that I've worked hard. We did quite a bit of cardio which I loved (I still laugh whenever I type or say that as I have always hated cardio) and it was great to see a few of the ladies I used to go to Alive with. :-)
Wednesday, Jessica and I did another walk in Fish Creek...this walk was a little bit shorter as my foot and knee were bothering me - but we still managed to walk almost 5km! I'm so glad the weather Gods have been on my side this week - haven't had to cancel any of my walks due to rain which is great!
Thursday I did another one of Kendra's classes...one word to describe it was brutal...but in a good way! There was lots of bosu/TRX/strength training - and at one point, probably half way through the class, I thought I was either going to pass out or throw up...but I just kept taking deep breaths and kept going...at one point she had us doing standing shoulder presses - with a fairly heavy weight (I thought it was 25 lbs, but now that I think about it I think it was 20 lbs) and because it was near the end of the class, I found it very difficult to get the weight even half way up over my head! I started to whine (like I tend to do) and Kendra came up to me and said "Stop being such a whimp!" and it made me want to work harder. I pumped off fifteen of them and then almost collapsed...lol...she also had us doing one of the exercises I dread the most - Spiderman planks on the bosu - two weeks ago I could hardly do two of them...I ended up doing FIFTEEN of them! I'm telling you - if you want to find an exercise that makes you sweat so hard, that it gets in your eyes and everywhere else for that matter, do these...I felt great after I did them...my next goal for those will be to do them from my toes... Kendra loves to push me and show me what I am capable of - I AM STRONG...it's just sometimes I need that extra kick in the ass to remind me of that. It's what both she and Ben have been trying to instill in me the past couple of years - I get it...finally.
Friday I took the day off of exercise and went out with some buddies from work that I haven't seen in a long time. It was really nice to just relax and have fun and have a drink - yes I only had one, but it felt great just to kick back and laugh and visit...
And as a result of this busy yet fun and challenging week both physically and mentally, I am down 2.4 lbs!! I have been sitting around the same 2-3 lbs for the past three weeks and it's been driving me bonkers! I am now 290.5 lbs - and I am hoping to be in the 280's by next Sunday!
Wish me luck!
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