Peanut Butter

The title says it all...

I have a huge addiction to peanut butter.  There I said it.  I think admitting it is the first step to recovery right? 

I think my addiction has gotten a little out of control though.  You see, I don't just have a taste - I go big or go home.  I always make sure I pack it in my lunch when I'm getting ready for work in the morning - and have realized something.  I've been lying to myself.  Sure, I fill my little rubbermaid 3 ounce container and keep telling myself it only equals two tablespoons.

WRONG!!!!

It finally occurred to me to actually measure it properly, and it comes out to about 4 tablespoons...about 400-500 extra calories a day. 

So I have since then made a promise to myself.  That I am going to slowly wean myself off the stuff.  I really shouldn't have it in my house...period.  The next couple of weeks, I am really going to give it an honest try and eat less and less of it until I don't need it anymore.  I'm going to check out this new stuff called PB2 - that lots of people are raving about.

I think I am also emotionally attached to the stuff.  I know...it sounds totally silly and ridiculous, but it's true.  I remember when I was in Kingergarten and Grade one - coming home at lunchtime on cold days and my Mom welcoming me home with a nice peanut butter sandwich - and hot chocolate of course :-)  I loved it.  I think a lot about my Mom when I eat peanut butter - we always had it in the house when we were growing up.  If Mom wasn't making me a sandwich, Dad was and it was always with lots of honey too! 

Somehow...I need to get over this emotional attachment.  It's going to take some time and lots of patience on my part, but I will get through it.

I've also lost 15.5 lbs in 4 weeks!  I'm so happy about it.  I've worked really hard and really focused myself.  I'm still having a few issues with hypoglycemia, but am really working hard to try and take regular breaks at work.  My body is still adjusting to the drop in calories.

I got up to 224 lbs on my deadlifts too!  I'm pretty stoked about it and am looking forward to going heavier in the next few weeks.  Thanks to Patrick and Brian for supporting me through it.  Patrick, you are amazing!  Thanks!

 

Bring on the next four weeks!!