Sunday, January 1, 2012

No Resolutions!

Happy 2012 Everyone!

So...Resolutions...why do we make them?  We wake up on January 1st and make all these "Resolutions" to ourselves.  Sure, for the first few weeks, we follow our new healthy meal plans and go to the gym with all the rest of them.  We tell ourselves that we will be "good" and we will make these resolutions to live a more healthy lifestyle.  How many of us actually stick to these promises that we make to ourselves?

I decided two years ago never to make these resolutions to myself again.  Sure, I did it.  I woke up on January 1st and told myself I was going to eat better...that I was going to go to "a gym" and exercise. 

I never did it. 

Instead, I've made a conscious effort to make "promises" to myself.  The one promise I really want to make to myself is to just be happy.  I would be lying if I said that 2011 was a stellar year for me.  It was not.  I struggled with the food aspect, but most of all I struggled with depression and I struggled with self-worth. 

If I learned anything this past year however, it would be realizing how much inner-strength I have.  There were so many times when I wanted to give up.  I wanted to just say "screw it" and not do this journey anymore.  I even went through a whole weekend of not exercising and not eating properly - just to see if I could go back to my old habits.  And you know what?  It didn't work.   It didn't last.  My "new" habits that I have formed kicked into full gear and I will never go back to that feeling again. 

When ALIVE closed down, and Ben and Holly moved away, I felt as though I lost my support system altogether.  I didn't realize it at the time, but this was probably one of the best things that could have happened to me.  It made me realize that I did and do have a support system - ME.  Only I can take care of myself and fight my battle with obesity on my own.  Sure, it's awesome to have friends along the way and it's wonderful to have a work out buddy from time to time.  I love that.  I love all of the support and encouragement I have recieved from my family and friends.  I am finally realizing that I am responsible for my future weight loss and goals...

I am realizing just how strong I am on on the inside.  Thank you to all of you that have been there for me - encouraging and supporting me along the way.  I am really looking forward to this year and all of the challenges it hold for me.  I am looking forward to not only meeting some weight loss goals, but other goals such as happiness and peace - within myself.

So, screw those "New Year's Resolutions" and start making promises to yourself.  Promise to live each day just being happy...

I am.

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