When I started my Journey over three years ago, Ben (my trainer) and I sat down and wrote down some goals that I wanted to achieve. We talked about how I wanted to be healthier and thinner, and we talked about how I wanted to be happy. While I have worked extremely hard at achieving these, they will always be an ongoing work in progress.
I have set a new goal for myself. I don't want to obsess about my weight anymore. To be honest...it's really getting to me. I will lose 10 pounds, then I'm up three...then I will lose three and be up two...
Get my drift?
Back in the fall of 2009, Ben introduced me to deadlifting. It was by far one of the exercises/drills he would have me do, and to be honest, I ROCKED at it. I ended up lifting as heavy as 265 lbs. My goal at that time was 300 lbs, but I never did it. I let my head crap get the best of me. Ben told me back then that he felt I could compete if I wanted to. At that point in my journey, I had so much garbage going on in my head - that I decided I couldn't do it. I had an obstacle in front of me - telling me that I couldn't do it. The obstacle was myself. So...I let it all go - decided I couldn't do it anymore and just tried to forget about it.
Until this past Saturday. Brian and I were at the YMCA working out and I decided I wanted to try to deadlift again. I have deadlifted from time to time since 2009, but have never really taken it seriously. Saturday, for some reason, I did. I did sets of five, each time going heavier and heavier. Then when I was taking a break, I looked to my left and saw this woman doing the exact same thing I was doing...I watched her out of the corner of my eye - she was doing snatches and cleans with heavy weight - I was amazed...we both looked at each other at the same time and so I complimented her. She came up to me and we started talking - I told her I had lifted as heavy as 265 lbs - and that I was wanting to work towards that again. She told me that I should be competing, if I wanted to lift that heavy. She told me I had great form and all I needed were some minor tweaks and to work on my breathing techniques. That's when she told me she had been a Women's Olympic Weight Lifting Coach. She gave me her name - which is Lynn - and she gave me her number and email address. The we went for a walk around the track and she gave me a "pep talk." She said if I needed ANY help at all, that she would help me get into competition "mode." We also talked a little bit about diet and things like that. I have already sent her an email and hope to hear back from her soon.
I now feel I have the confidence to do this. I want to be healthier and more fit of course, but I also want to be stronger than I ever had been in my life - and I am well on my way. I know with the proper coaching, and perseverance and hard work on my part, I can do it. I've always had the outer strength to do this - now I need to work harder on my inner strength!
I'm excited...I have a new goal to work towards...Weightlifting competition...HERE I COME!